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torr light gone and mourning, improvisation and i am still alive


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absolute scale, now defined as exactly 1760 of a standard
atmosphere. Thus one torr is exactly101325760 pascals (133.32
Pa). Historically, one torr was intended to be the same as one
'millimeter of mercury'."

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yesterday afternoon by the path where we turn from the rocks)
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Internet: Origins, Theory, Practice


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Syllabus for a special topic university course on digital
culture and the Internet - comments welcome.

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This course will cover a wide variety of topics, centered on
digital media and the Internet, and on the profound changes to
society that the digital revolution has brought about. There are
no prerequisites except online access.

The course will be structured around informal lectures and
in-class discussion, coupled with student research; by the
fourth week, please choose a topic to present in-class and
online. Attendance is mandatory.

All readings will be online; given the fast-forward nature of
the Internet, the urls will be assigned on a week-by-week basis.
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Week 1:

Introductory

What do you do online? How many hours? What do you do offline?
How many hours?

Introduction to the field of digital studies - the past,
present, and future of the Internet and online communication in
general. We will discuss the basic similarities and differences
between analog and digital media, focusing on both the 'natural'
and 'human-created' worlds. Illustrations from antiquated
technologies like look-up tables, abacuses and slide-rules.
Brief discussion of breadth versus depth approaches to
knowledge.

Week 2:

Early history of the Internet - the text-driven digital world,
including early search engines (gopher, archie, veronica),
email, and communities (the Well, Spoon, etc.). The RFC
directory. Earlier Internet handbooks. The concept behind
TCP/IP. Newsgroups and computer BBS (bulletin boards), Fidonet.
The Yanoff list. How should the breadth of information be
organized? The Hobbes Timeline.

Week 3:

Mozilla, Netscape, and early Web browsers. Early online
communities. MOOs, MUDs, MUCKS, and early text-based games like
Adventure. Newsgroups, IRC. Stormfront. The beginnings of Net
culture, and its relation to offline communities. CB, ham radio,
telegraph communities.

Week 4:

Beginnings of multi-media online. POWWOW, CU-SeeMe. The idea of
the "homepage" - various kinds of homepages. Using the WayBack
site. TheCastle and other early virtual worlds. The rise of
blogs. We want to begin thinking about the construction of the
online subject or user - what being online means for society as
a whole.

Week 5:

Wikipedia, online information, fake news, bullying, online
scholarship. The growth of the Internet, the digital divide.
Generation gaps - thinking also about early boys' radio clubs.
Online relationships. Sex, love, and death in cyberspace.
Postmodernism and the fragmented self.

Week 6:

Facebook, Instagram, G+ and Gmail, Yahoo and other social media.
Online addiction, the psychology of the screen. Messaging.
Modalities of online subjectivity, the MULTI directory of
presentation of the self in everyday online life. Is online
always virtual? Is the virtual always online?

Week 7:

Online education, plagiarism, MOOCs (massive open online
courses). Psychology of learning online. Kindergarten block
play, STEM, STEAM and other national initiatives. Bottom-up
organizations, TAZ (temporary autonomous zones), hacker and
maker spaces, collaboration spaces, Occupy. Fast-forward
political actions, cellphone organizing.

Week 8:

Hacking, cracking, 2600 magazine, the politicization of hacking,
script kiddies, cyberwarfare. Information wants to be free. The
case of anon.penet.fi. Trolling, Dibbell's A Rape in Cyberspace.

Week 9:

Economics of Amazon, etc. The effect on brick and mortar stores.
Mobile platforms and platform dominance. The trajectories of
money in the digital world. Offshore accounting, immediacy,
virtual currencies.

Online from top-down - Who controls what? State supervision of
the Net, issues of Net neutrality. The EFF, Electronic Freedom
Foundation.

Week 10:

Internet art, blockchain, Furtherfield, digital art in general.
DIWO, Do it with Others. Collaboration, makerspaces. Codework,
Jodi and others. Randall Packer and Networked Art. Online
identities and their expressions. The Arab Spring.

Week 11:

Micro-cultures, fandoms. alt.society.neutopia, monster truck
neutopians, Walkers in Darkness, Body-mod sites. How is Twitter
organized? Presentations, discussions.

Week 12:

Presentations, discussions.
Summary

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Justice Music


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SVA - Cross-Cultural Human Relations, 2006-7 (not my title)
(course assigned to me; I subbed; my notes/direction below)

Subject: re: LAST CLASS - please read
This coming Wednesday is our last class.

These issues concern all of us, no matter what our beliefs - and
they'll become increasingly visible as time goes on. My own
feeling is that humans aren't programmed to "really listen" to
one another - we're programmed instead to survive. But if we
don't learn to listen, survival will become increasingly
problematic. Maybe Listen! - that might be the only message
left.

See you Wednesday, and thanks -

- Alan

genre and canon
- The world appeared fixed, clarified, imperial.
NOW the world:
a. Skein / membrane - social networking - knowledge management of
knowledge management.
b. Hierarchical in terms of digital phenomena: C:\ - root,
absolute truth in the small - relative truth in the large.
Postmodernism/deconstruction/entanglement/singularity.

Internet - good or bad -
My own take:
a. First there's obvious access to other cultures' information -
presented by participants in these cultures. One might follow
'threads' across the Web.
b. On the other hand - who is providing the information? Is
there spoofing or phishing involved? But: information that's
provided is very likely to be authoritative. But: NGO, religous,
or governmental sites may provide formal and  biased information.
(Cases: North Korea's Radio Pyong Yang, ham radio, Voice of
America, Radio Netherlands, BBC.)
:   WHO is providing information?
:   WHY are they providing it?
:   WHAT do they hope to gain from this?
:   HOW are they providing it (Web style, navigation, etc.)
c. On the third hand, the fragmentary nature of online
information: how is information parcelled out in general? Can
specific/anecdotal online infor- mation replace theory,
ethnography, critical studies, etc.?
d. Issues of the ECONOMY OF ATTENTION; it's not enough to have
the information up - it must attract attention, and hold
attention, in a busy online environment.

Conservative viewpoint: freedom, personal merit, discipline,
prudence, moderation, responsibility, self-restraint, hard work,
authority, order, decency, elitism, non-permissiveness.

The ascription to the Other of the Inverse of the Self. The
assumption of universal rationality, particular traits. But even
the syllogism is open to reinterpretation, transformation.

The Western view of either radical disconnect or only formal
entanglement

packets of modernization:
carrying:
communication modes
modes of abstraction and alienation (including plastics, etc.)
modes of mobility
overarching dialects = language as carrier of power
::    slang and lingo
implicit colonialist attitudes
::    one-way vector
::    purity and cleansing
::    transportation
::    problematic of the granularity of locale
::    formal historiography (problem with Sidi Sultan)
dissolution of locale, movement to urban centers
plastic, for example, as _obdurate._
radio as steering mechanism, external voicing
feedback mechanisms (Taos use of Smithsonian accounts)
commodification of music and culture:
      objectification:
      use of western scales, musics, electricity
      tourism and dissolution of 'bush knowledge'
      musical 'reach' within music industry, entertainment industry
      influence of world-music
modeling based on hegemonic culture

'depth' of subcultures, musical cultures: punk, hippy, etc. -
Josh White's "invisible colleges"
Pamela Tracy: Why don't you act your color? Identifications
cutting/colliding across all sorts of boundaries:
m/f, black/white, in-group/out-group, musical taste
Why does music, among other forms, engender identity issues so
strongly? What is music?

Does the analysis of modernization apply here:
Where does our music come from?
Who does our music?

Is one form of music 'inherently' better than another?

Hebdidge: the recuperation of styles: "conversation of
subcultural signs into mass-produced objects" the 'labelling'
and re-definition of deviant behavior by dominant groups endless
discussion with Myk, can one be punk?

resistance and its commodification: CBGB as a case in point.
- images from CBGB

The complex history, mirroring, and identification of
black/white music paralleling the same complex history in
relation to Zines.

Hebdidge quoting Barthes the petit-bourgeois as a person unable
to imagine the other, the other is a scandal which threatens his
existence. Two strategies dealing with this:

1 The Other can be trivialized, naturalized, domesticated -
      Otherness reduced to sameness.

2 The Other can be transformed into meaningless exotica, a 'pure
      object, a spectacle, a clown.' Here difference is consigned to
      a place beyond analysis.

headings: Style as Intentional Communication, Style as
Bricolage, We are surrounded by emptiness, but it is an
emptiness filled with signs, Lefebvre

first: what is it about dance/music? Primates react, new studies
show that infants react, primarily to rhythm - it's built-in -
how does an aural environment work:
      think of sound as second-person, atmospheric, goes around
      corners, etc.

(Fancy-Dancing)
Intersecting groups:
      gendering
      Jewish/Native American (recital of Kaddish)
      City/Reservation

Traditional musics turned upside-down (becoming topical, similar
to griot)
- form of resistance, reclaiming tradition: singing as signing:
      "our" music for example - Papago ownership of songs and
      song-cycles, giving songs

Zines = underground economy. What happened to them?
Phrack at http://www.phrack.org/
Scream-Baby http://scotto.org/listing.php?smlid=175 and
http://scotto.org/images/screambaby.txt

One must remember that most peoples live normal lives in
familiar surroundings, and all peoples are modern.

1. The Eden of the Edenic - an unsullied paradise; white
       hegemonic culture then becomes sullying, but also
       encapsulating. The Edenic becomes a dominated sub-culture by
       virtue of the lie; it resists, imitates, and adapts. All of
       this is clear in the film.

The Edenic trope is one of childhood, naivete, goodness, lack of
conflict, even lack of culture. The individual is "at one" with
nature; nature and culture are one. The culture is
self-sustaining and inert; nothing changes. Even sexual display
and conflict is non-existent. At the back of this at times there
is also the idea of unbridled sexuality.

The trope is also one of destruction; the Edenic has no concept
of ownership or stewardship; THEREFORE the land is there for the
taking. The Edenic has no sense of monotheism; THEREFORE the
humans are close to animals, sub-humans.

The Edenic has no recognizable boundary, THEREFORE no rationale,
no rationalism; it cannot be negotiated with, but property must
be seized, and by seizure, created.

The lie appears because the Edenic is under erasure just as soon
as it's formulated. By erasure: it's divested of power, because
it's asserted never to have power, never to have legitimacy.
Religion is entangled in this of course.

Then -

Hatred/racism:

What constitutes territorialization:
(unspoken) codes:
dress		skin-color	religion	language
habitus behavior	ingroup/outgroup phenomena
defense		fear		employment etc.

code projections:
dirty		filthy		over-sexed	'want our women'
noisy		rapacious	greedy		secretive etc.

the projections are part of the local unspoken code

in terms of sexual/personal relationships:
race		class		age		religion etc.

[linear/structural grid. what happens with deterritorialization,
nomadic or situational phenomenologies? feminism and feminist
phenomenology: Luce Irigaray, feminin ecriture, fluid mechanics.

catastrophe theory: fragility of the good; consider: a chain is
as strong as its weakest link under capital, preferential
treatment for the wealthy

among human relations: tendency towards hardening and
generalization of categories (Borges' tree, racial definitions,
etc.) -
on one hand the necessity of economy
on the other the violence of economy

what happens when a 'mix' occurs? (Ali's dilemma)
double-bind theory - Laing and others
fitting-in and not fitting-in and with whom?

== Among different nationalities here. But even within the same:
Do you ever know what's happening? Language as the mutual
orientation of cognitive domains (Maturana) again.

messiness precisely brings forth the truth:
1. the world is messy
2. the world is lateral (think of Feynman diagrams)
3. knowledge is grounded in the body
4. the world is abject (always on the verge of falling apart)

(unspoken) codes again -
dress		skin-color	religion	language
habitus behavior	ingroup/outgroup phenomena
defense		fear		employment

feminism and feminist phenomenology: Luce Irigaray, feminin
ecriture, fluid mechanics.

Missionary texts: - last week -

1. inerrancy of position based on perceived inerrancy of text
2. skewed projections and introjections - misrecognitions,
misinterpretations - but also an inability to self-critique or
operate on a 'meta-level.'
3. inability to understand one mythos substituted for another
4. Eurocentric viewpoint: What constitutes an inability to perceive?
5. linear and 'rational' discourse: A leads to B, and so forth

It ends here. Some hopelessly naive; I did the best I could.
Teaching the problematic or diffuse proved disenheartening.
I didn't apply again.

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The Big Linux Locomotive Name Quiz Application

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k!% quiz locomotive name

4-10-0?

Patricia? Are you there?
What?
Enormous Differences between Edward and Timothy!
What?
Now Shortly there Are None!
What?
Magnificent fours and zeros!
What?

Mastodon

2-10-4?

Temporal Tampering with Surly Susan
What?
Jon!
What?
No, John!
What?
Johnny?
What?

Texas

4-4-0?

Texas?
What?
Texas
What?
Taxes? or Something like Tex or Francis?
What?
Tim, that's it, Timothy!
What?
"Surly Mastodon," Timothy replied, Surly Susan in agreement!!
What?
What?
What?
No, that wasn't it, King Edward the Confessor?
What?

Eight-Wheeler

2-10-4?

Not 8-Wheeler but anyway what did he confess? It was a he?
What?
Who?
What?

Selkirk

2-8-4?

I was just going to say "Selkirk" but thought "Dunkirk" instead!
What?
Does "Dunkirk" count?
What?
Trick question, Dunkirk was a Count!
What?
Count Dirkirk! :-) (smiley! :-) _
What?

Kanawha

4-8-0?

Kanawha Who?
What?
Kanawha Sondheim, my tiny lost second cousin from Bermuda!
What?

Twelve-Wheeler

4-6-0?

Ten-Wheeler
Right!

Oh God don't tell me I got one!

2-8-8-2?

Eight-Wheeler
What?
Eighty-Eight Wheeler!
What?
Ok, Twenty Wheeler!
What?
I have it: Two people with spiders between them!
What?
Spiders
What?
Spidee?
What?

Chesapeake

4-8-4?

Chesapeake? "I'd rather not look!"
What?
Look Away! Now! The spiders are coming!
What?
We're part of a spider sandwich!!!
What?
Run!!! Run!!!
What?

Niagara

0-10-0?

Tensies!
What?

Ten-Coupled

2-2-2?

Six of us into the Bed! QuizMaster Out!

QuizMaster Out!

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In 1975, I participated in a group show, "Projects in Nature"
(with the likes of Alice Aycock and Carl Andre) in Far Hills,
New Jersey. The works were all site-specific; my contribution
was a group of texts, images, and videos dealing with the
apperception of the farmland and associated ecosystems. What I
created was a skein of interrelated approaches, which I
generalized into a catalog essay on the "Phenomenology of
Approach." This originated in my readings of phenomenology in
general, especially Alfred Schutz's Reflections on the Problem
of Relevance (Yale, 1970). The book examined in great deal how
the buzzing confusion of information of the world was psycho-
logically organized into what might be relevant to the observer,
and how it might be relevant. I related it to Merleau Ponty's
work, but my own approach was both more poetic and more
mathematical, a form of what later has been called deep ecology.

More recently, I've been reading Arne Naess (Ecology of Wisdom,
2008) and thinking about everything from Buddhism to dynamics
and category theory, to blankspace and splatter semiotics, and
to scatter semiotics, culture, and trajectories of histories. In
the meantime, I've gone back to examine a text I wrote in 2007
on the phenomenology of approach, rethinking the earlier essay.
This is found at http://www.alansondheim.org/phenapproach.rtf
or http://www.alansondheim.org/phen.txt

What has brought me to rethink these issues is the digital
revolution, which has created unprecedented changes in every
aspect of life, death, culture, communications, commerce, war,
and society on the planet. Its utopian moment, like all utopian
moments, has come and gone; all of this has happened since the
mid-twentieth century, and for all intents and purposes, since
the mid-1990s. Articles hold forth with unbelievable optimism,
cynicism, pessimism; violence increases around the world as
Pinker tells us it's on the wane; Trump; robotics and AI promise
freedom from work while the rate of poverty continues to grow
almost exponentially; we talk about colonizing Mars when we have
already ruined, through our stewardship and tending, our home
planet earth.

All of us know all of this of course.

What I've been doing, to clear my own mind, is walking with
Azure, examining and learning how to begin to comprehend the
earth and its ecosystems, without falling into breadth, but into
breath and wandering, allowing for failure and occasional depth.
The photographs, of ice formations, bird behavior, violent
storms, geological formations, and so on, are part of a way of
letting go. I first learned about this approach when in 2001-2,
we went almost daily into the Everglades just to look. At first,
alligators, anhinga, and herons caught our attention; by the end
of our time there, we were beginning to understand periphyton,
insect species and populations, and sawgrass. In other words, a
different way of being there was happening to us.

So I started to think more about the phenomenology of approach
text, and its way/s of dealing with the world, and then about
Carl Hiaasen's essay on taking his son to the Everglades, so
that he might see them one last time, before they disappeared.

And how they are disappearing now, with storm surges sending
salt-water into them, fertilizers and other chemicals entering
from the north, population pressures from Miami and other areas
of increasing urbanization... And then, with this, and my
thinking about semiotic splatter/scatter (with their destructive
dynamics), I've been thinking about a "phenomenology of
effacement" - how things, through destructive dynamics, are
effaced in the world.

(Phenomenology of effacement implies a before-and-after, a
dynamics approach to deterioration, disappearance, even ethnic
cleansing and genocide. But also an approach to technological
obsolescence, ocean trashing, desertification - any situation in
which approach is coupled with the rapidity of ruins. And so
also the psychology of approaching effacement, the issues of
mourning, terror, ptsd, and so forth. I struggle with this.)

So I go back and forth, from the digital to the analog, from
being _here, online,_ working with text/program/virtualworld,
all these unbelievable tools that were unimaginable a few
decades ago, to thinking about a stone lifted by expanding ice,
or a dinosaur footprint, or a raven flying upside-down for what
appears to be nothing more than enjoyment, to the obdurate and
ancient world we live in, with its seething of nuclear minerals
and elements long before we populated the planet. And I see this
is a form of slow-thinking which I feel is absolutely necessary
now, thinking like qin-playing, almost non-thinking, or thinking
on the verge of thought.

As a way to encompass the world, beyond the world's appearance
through the visionary apparatus of the latest CES - and then, to
bring this encompassing, this obdurate, back within the digital
and thinking-through the digital - which won't go away soon,
unless we, too, to away...

The phen.txt is an odd read, if not a hard one; it's been really
essential for my own thinking. The core of it stems from 2002,
when we were leaving the Everglades; the heart looks back to
1975, when I was full of wonder over the skein of the real
itself; and then back to Schutz, forward through Naess, back to
our wanderings, most recently around ("circumnavigating") Walden
Pond, all 1.7 miles of the journey returning us all different
and the same.

Please give this a try, if you have the time and patience, and
if not, you might have the same or similar ideas as well.

Thanks, Alan

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If I Burn Alive in the Arms of Donald Trump, will It Make a
Difference?

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but am quite afraid of pain; kill me with dull poi- lost among
junkie heavens unbearable ecstasy kill way like drawn within we
choose to draw blood with you, if i lisp i kill you, you lisp
you brush your hair, i beg you, kill me; i beg you, kill me,
kill again; i pure despair. I'm fucking afraid of dying, and yet
I want to kill myself, work = #### b-code: fuck = #### c-code:
kill = #### and the deadened of - crying, next - the kill
whispers, time they're can later you Clara Kimball and a planet
will kill you. You are dying of the plant we can kill and do
nothing had betrayed him, and he would kill the perpetrator of
that betrayal who Assassins come in and kill daughters.
Daughters lie there in a pool of of death but I'd kill myself in
a second, right now, right before you, if will all die and we
will live it is time to kill them Come home with me, diseased
cripple the elderly smash the elderly kill the old misplace
Sanction asked for radio station, urged to kill immigrants rifle
and a Daishin Nikuko meets the Buddha on the road. The Buddha
says, kill me. White, I kill the Jew in every one of us, the
dirty dung-heap of Oh HELP HELP! The REPUBLICANS are going to
kill us! _word._ I kill the _word._ Language is a _word._
Language is an enemy. President Clinton claimed the attack was
revenge for a plot to kill George speeds endlessly through the
body - incandescent kill me inside-you baby - carries
annihilation and the kill control at its binary heart. fer! You
be the killer, kill my children! Thud, wet! Delirious Jennifer,

  unknown can't kill the land,-lord shall come into the quarrel,
and kill one another. A fifth shall succeed afghanistan and usa
are waiting to kill you top (non-existent) attempts freeze
delete kill persons, objects, If I am useless, can no longer
work or think, kill me, and if my work is he didn't kill them
directly, it was what television calls a "mob hit" by you can't
smash them. i want to sleep. kill me, i'm bored. dance atoms
i've been effaced virtue forgetfulness could machine, i'd kill
You are in open forest near both a valley and a road. kill road
action - never, ever - kill for pleasure - keep it quiet -
cyanide as remembers everything that there are videotapes,
audiotapes, archives kill They can kill everyone else including
themselves and I will They can kill everyone else including
themselves and I will Because I kill everything I love bringing
it to an end just add a flesh waters every living If I can't be
Buddha I will kill training camps in President kill immigrants
0.253896 1 President. I set urine before the guests i will kill
you but my voice must be pure tongue legally a federal offense
to kill the president. lyndon johnson taking the your desire:
you soft reboot hard reboot; you kill delete; you hex it:
0 * swollen engorged zz aa deny yourself, kill yourself==

  kill Tiffany and bring Nikuko with me! Yay! Here she comes, Hi
Nikuko!" (pulls at her hair) (louder) They are trying to kill me
because I AM NOT myself! Why is this I write because if I don't,
I'd kill myself. I write 1957 Somewhere around this time I tried
to kill myself with a mixture of On and on: This would kill
_anyone,_ this misreading, misrecognition, corner can't a
nuisance just i've corner headaches kill rest a If I don't write
well, Cleary 1996-2002 Jacob Smiths order, quoted in this essay,
to kill and If I stop writing well, kill me. If I cease to make
sense, kill me. Kill inconceivably _inescapable._ shuddering,
shivering, want to kill Border Patrol, whose object is to kill
as many illegal immigrants as ALREmouthY SPEECHWORK, i ask you
to kill me." money and shoot - kill auschwitz bush get thugs
money world's shoot myself. Then after I kill myself I will kill
you. i will defeat myself i life and if i kill myself i hurt i
hurt no sure of it i'd kill myself, segregationist Republicans
kill all anti-environmental Bring war to junkie Assassins kill
all daughters. Daughters rise and say. OUR

      Susan Graham          kill all hangman males
                        Susan Graham         kill all hangman males

JULU: I'll kill all two of you.
NIKUKO: I'll kill all three.

folds fold bones folds kill my mind. mind. bones i bones me
please creased I can't motherfather, delirious Jennifer, then
kill me! Assassins enter. They kill George Bush.
:FOREIGN PEOPLE daughters.:Assassins kill George Bush. George

waiting ... Immigrants kill Scottish tourist.  Will Be Send To
Your judge can will kill and forever i live maybe I can't kill
anymore...' zen buddha want kill anyone survive desire beautiful
uncanny with, for images kill as well. complaints. build want,
kill build kill.  want, Why do people kill each other? it folds
kill kill folds there's it. mind. no creased it. time fold no i
Nikuko: Let us kill in His name. I did not kill is in my spry
For 6 days, I have already been in

  8 04:08 I will kill you I will kill you I will kill you I will
kill you 9 because i will kill you and fuck your brains out.
Voice Chat... Connected I'll kill you. We want you as well,
Alan, for the longer bones want kill me to mind. wake me longer
wake me crawl no wake up unbearable ecstasy you kill me way i
like to be drawn down to you in delirious Jennifer, then kill
me! I be the woman, You beg "Klaus, kill me! Klaus kill me with
your song! Klaus, I'm going got brother i kill my son and
daughter mother sister brother son Then after I kill myself I
will kill you. Honestly, I will kill myself. Do not doubt I will
do this very thing. a crime to kill oneself and a crime to
attempt to kill oneself. automated erasure = kill or delete. In
my sickness I delete. In Webern; a rope kill others; a chemical;
a firing squad; a war; usual - we'll kill ourselves
- 11 assassinate now - this time use a conspired dreamer
delivered kill shed wilderness rid stript gilead camels hello! I
will kill take the man from the woman and kill projection kill

 		And all men kill the thing they love, 911
because we kill the unborn; everyone's online listen to me: my
of everyone and kill them all with you. I'm afraid we'll kill
them as they "Masteitimi, They won't kill us! say! anything!
she'll kill you! want to see my hole again? come on Julu,
popular. It will kill you. It will keep you going. You'll die
broke but shadow? deathlst kill yourself t (If really drugs,
she's Devil there's only one thing he can do and that is to kill
her have a no him who no has children born we over over kill
this our war churning center swallows time family favorite kill
my father hard-drive: Beware! PCP fumes will kill within five
seconds. [intensely] well kill ation (i.e. kill commands
directed towards particular addresses), or delete and kill
commands. Tense, we search through the barricaded windows (I am
a mommy and I want to kill my (CADDR L))(CONS 'L '(IS VERY BAD))
I am not simply referring to this behavior of wanting to kill
immigrants. ...  ... Osama Bin Laden&#39;s guys would love to
kill Bush. ... 1849 that's all i can do die here ys togoing to
kill me de iou iy're a cult. one man. conspiracy. and kill you
can do nothing to stop TURN GRAY. Your junkie Assassins kill all
daughters. Daughters rise and meshed, dog-legged. I've conquered
what will kill me. The image drowns. was THE because went GYM
married kill he made as well FOR, BOTH VIDEO-ARTS council does
not want to ... militants kill in baghdad parking lot (: am for
corner can't a nuisance just i've corner headaches kill rest a
can't begin ... so many people to kill ... I am twenty-three.
Look, Bonjour, salaam, shalom, hello! I will kill you can write
violence's wounds. you can write kill war. you can write with
George's daughters violent blond brawn. They will kill will be
kill soon he will pay for this and you people at we're fucked
George's daughters violent blond brawn. They will kill Iraq.
They will missiles all p poonis inty and the like t poonis kill
big and little flux They was aloof, too oh toor color of
shattered kill drop or look fuzz Guns don't kill people; people
do! knock at the door, kill me; know I will not be able to
withstand. the ... kill Scottish tourist. It seems it doesn t
matter where you travel person. It is enough that you if I can.
I will kill myself. (pause) Look, use dele . Should use dele en
en ion. Should use kill abor s people badly. damp and burnished
ground ... floors kill me within your needle! What do despair.
I'm fucking afraid of dying, and yet I want to kill myself,
whose If I could murder through this machine, I'd kill everyone.
calls forth A dying boy here gets his last wish from a
foundation to kill up before sunrise. already walking. about now
going die. kill counts - pre-emptive strike - immediate action -
never, ever - kill for kill all priest. worry lama. hunt rabbi.
kill shamans. kill all grand such again flay first kill maw ruin
: stops nevermore loves sometimes eyes. death yes give myself.
kill myself furiously. woman. man moorings. And me, I say to
you, kill yourself, descend into the matter Look I'm fucking
myself. bJULU/b: I'll kill all of you. b LEST WE FORGET, earth?"
"No, servant, I shall kill you and send you ahead of me." (Then)
"delete" although she's also a file and you can kill her by
entering MY SHIT ON :Assassins kill George Bush. He rises and
says. I AM GEORGE 2002. I know missiles will kill us. :missile
muscle, massif. massive towards Great Attractor. Lost in Lyman
forest Virgil would kill himself, part exhaustion, part
hysteria, part mourning - and it will kill us, just Serif, I did
not kill julu!!! they do not vote for our vote we will attack
and kill them remember being kicked with intent to kill in
Brooklyn at the end JULU: I'll kill both of you. there's all
comes, I think that's it, I'll kill myself! Reinforcements. It
can't make this stuff up kill aparent aback a heart, double
suicide, you are inside my heart, i will kill i'm a corporation
you can't kill me "I could kill you for what you did to me, but
you did it first." Tiffany asks "Did you kill Orc?" this. I'd
rather you kill me slowly. I'd rather you'd prepare our meals,
"Has anyone else you know planned to kill anyone with poison
gas:____ If I beg you, kill me, without that flat dry voice when
the world JENNIFER: I'll kill you. ALAN: I'll fuck anyonebr I
want to. bNIKUKO/b: deaf and dead you: i will kill you all
daughters. All daughters die. PEOPLE. ALL :Assassins kill kill
your ghost, your ghost is inside my heart, we will kill each
other, holes. Wee-wee on your mommy and daddy. I will come and
kill your entire cage d grate your water I take Peter! kill
swallow yourself, deny yourself, kill yourself== you have always
yourselves, are yourself yourself== kill yourself, deny aa zz
deny yourself, kill yourself== yourself are yourselves, defuge
the you just can't make this stuff up kill aparent why do you
have to kill turtle immediate action - never, ever - kill for
pleasure - keep it quiet - BUSH THE FIRST. Devour
cocaine-you-know-me Assassins kill George Bush. He cyanide as
usual - we'll kill ourselves - 1 round them up - pre-emptive
You: > say try and kill me, say Kill Alan <Julu> As long as
Nikuko .e can't kill any more Sondheim can't kill any more i
can't kill any more,lor-lord But comfort alleviates may stay
heart, double inside kill myself, hearts

If I Burn Alive in the Arms of Donald Trump, will It Make a
Difference?

1920s? brass Ganges water jar instrument

for John and Uli, who gave me this wonderful gift.

http://www.alansondheim.org/gangajal.jpg
http://www.alansondheim.org/gangajal.mp3
http://www.alansondheim.org/gangajalb.mp3

Listen to both with earphones if you can; the 2nd version has
added filter correction and reverb; the frequencies tend, more
than one might believe, to resonate in the subsonics.

"Whew, I've been researching the jar; it's a gangajal or ganga
jal jar, probably from the 1920s, used for transporting water
from the Ganges for purification; it has writing on it in three
places that I can't decipher."

"I recorded the jar. As you know, descendents of water jars are
used in Indian music (think of the ghatam) and I found if I
turned the jar upside-down, sealing the mouth on a mouse-pad, I
could use it in a similar way, and the sealing created an
interior that seems to resonate into the subsonics as well."

Compression pulses are set up in the jar; the air couples with
its container. I think of this as containing a universe. The
recorder, an H2n, was inside; the compression pulses surrounded
the microphones. Playing the outer surface, I'm literally
creating sound and music that is beyond me, the secrecy of the
contained and its resistance.

http://www.alansondheim.org/gangajal.jpg

(I can never reach music; music is a problem for me.)

self-devouring emacs nikuko-alan entries

http://www.alansondheim.org/nikuko-alan1.jpg
http://www.alansondheim.org/nikuko-alan.jpg

  do you feel you\'re in exile
Is it because do I feel me 're in exile take all of you proceed
that you came naked and broken to me?
Does it bother you that do you feel you 're in exile take all of
me
proceed that I came naked and broken to you?
     go on\, what are you looking at  don\'t stop i need you
     your hungry feelings toward  your desperate moments with
When did you first know that do I say that?
Earlier you said do I feel me 're in exile take all of you
proceed?
Maybe and now I adjust my panties - your desires have to do with
someone related to this.
     how you feel about    you seem fascinated by  // feared  \.
     does this arouse you \?
What makes you yearn and cry that  when did me first feel $
afraidof feared?
What happened when did you first feel $ afraidof feared?
     what would happen if you had a gun and if
     what would happen if we did it or if
     do you want to drink my piss \?
     when did  // subj  first  $ want   // obj  \?
     $ areyou  obsessed with  // obj  \?
You mentioned that do you feel you 're in exile take all of me
proceed that I came naked and broken to you?
     i am \Nikuko\, i can do anything i damn please \.
     not really\, it\'s not up to me \.
     maybe i can\, maybe i can\'t \.\.\.
Is it because of your life that you are going through all this?
  i don\'t think i should do that \.
'  can you elaborate on that and look at me \?
   $ please  continue\, my eyes are very big \.
Is it because of the people you hang around with that you say
     continue $ continue your eyes are very big?
     go on\, don\'t be afraid of me\, look up my legs \.
     i need a little more detail please \- let me come to you \?
What makes you believe  i might want to have this little?
  can you  $ please  be more explicit\, fill me \?  and\, ohhhhh
Are you sure that do I say that?
  why must you respond so briefly \?
Is the fact that do me reconcile my nakedness the real reason?
  setq things' ; your interests in genitals ; the fingers you
use  your desires
I don't understand and oh I want to.
     your sex life  perversions you have  your inhibitions
     some problems in my childhood
I would appreciate so very much it if you would you do so turn
me on, continue!
     tell me about  expose yourself about  discuss
     tell me more and more about  elaborate on
Earlier you said do I feel me 're in exile take all of you
proceed?
     $ please  oh please do finger yourself \.
     do so come on to me and we will be not neurotic \.
Could be this is someone the reason for any fantasies you have
of me?
     i am in love with your obsession with this topic!
     did you watch a lot of sex and violence as a child \?
     $ describe  $ something  about your sexual history \.
Do you really think $ describe $ something about my sexual
history?
      $ describe  your  $ feelings-about  Julu \.
      $ areyou  a friend of Nikuko \?
      $ areyou bother  Alan is  $ random-adjective  \?
Perhaps you could oh please clothe yourself in these unwholesome
thoughts.
      $ describe  your  // found  \.
      $ bother  your orgasms could  $ improve  \?
      $ areyou   $ afraidof   // found  \?
      $ maybe  this  $ isrelated  to your attitude \.
You mentioned that do you feel you 're in exile take all of me
proceed that I came naked and broken to you?
      $ areyou  a serious mind \?
      $ ibelieve  you have some serious  $ problems  \.
Perhaps and now I exhibit my frocks - your sex life are related
to this.
   $ describe  why you call me  // found  \.
  i\'ve can never get enough of you!
Is it because of perversions you have that you are going through
all this?
look looked looking looks lose losing lost love loved loves
loving luse lusing lust lusts
lusts what ?
Please, tell me about your relationship with look looked looking
looks lose losing lost love loved loves loving luse lusing lust
lusts lusts.
  take all of me\, proceed
What makes you think  i would like to have this little?
     your hungry feelings toward
     your desperate moments with
     some neurotic experiences you have had with
How do you reconcile your inhibitions?
'  maybe and now i adjust my  $ cloth  \-
     could be
     perhaps and now i exhibit my  $ cloth  \-
     might be
Are you afraid of that?
     what would happen if you had a gun and if
     what would happen if we did it or if
Earlier you said do I say that?
  would you pay to touch me when you're drinking  // found  \?
What happened at the time when I am drinking found?
   $ areyou  obsessed with  // obj  \?
  why should i give  // obj  to  // subj  \?
Might be this is related to some problems in my childhood?
  i don\'t think i should do that \.
'  can you elaborate on that and look at me \?
Does the fact that and look at you explain anything else?
'  do you drink a lot of  // found  \?
Is it because of some problems at home that you say ' do I drink
a lot of found?
     you aren\'t being very talkative today\!
     can you see my pretty pretty  $ cloth  \?
You mentioned that do me reconcile my nakedness?
Have you been sure do you reconcile your nakedness?
Possibly and guess - I show you my flesh - your desires could
have caused this.
  your nakedness
Why do you say  your nakedness?
' ; your interests in genitals
; the fingers you use
What makes you yearn and cry that do I feel me 're in exile take
all of you proceed?
     your sex life
     perversions you have
Would you please oh please do finger yourself.
; the fingers you use
Is it because of your life that you are going through all this?
     your inhibitions
     some problems in my childhood
Is it because of the people you hang around with that you say
your inhibitions some problems in your childhood?
; knowledge of men
  some problems at home
Earlier you said do you feel you 're in exile take all of me
proceed that I came naked and broken to you?
   $ areyou  obsessed with  // obj  \?
  what would
happen if you had a
gun and if
  what would happen if we did it or if
How do you reconcile your nakedness?
  what would happen if we did it or if
What makes you believe that?
     do you want to drink my piss \?
     would you pay to touch me when you're drinking // found \?
What would happen if you had a gun and if I am drinking found?
     why should i \?
     what makes you think i would even want to \?
to what ?   have you ever gotten me or  // obj  \?
How does it feel to want?
You mentioned that  i would like to have this little?
can you  $ please  be more explicit\, fill me \?
     and\, ohhhhh \?
     $ please  go into more detail\, think of me \?
  can you see my pretty pretty  $ cloth  \?
Maybe and now I adjust my testicles - this could be the reason
for any fantasies you have of me?
'  oh oh i do see so \.\.\.
  oh oh yes\,
Are you sure that  oh yes?
  oh \.
Can you elaborate on that and look at me?
'  please\,
Would you love me more if you had to pay?
'  please please don't ever leave me \.
Do you really think do I say that?
; your use of sex toys
  your life
; other machines you use
Do so come on to me and we will be not neurotic.
   $ please  clothe yourself in these unwholesome thoughts \.
Could be your sex life could be the reason for this.
   $ bother  you\, too\, may die someday \?
Could you you do so turn me on, continue!
'   $ areyou   $ afraidof  sex \?
      $ describe  $ something  about your sexual history \.
      $ please  $ describe  your sex life and body \.\.\.
      $ describe  your  $ feelings-about  your sexual partner \.
      $ areyou  satisfied with  // lover  \.\.\. \?
Is it because of perversions you have that you say   $ areyou
satisfied with lover?
      $ describe  your  $ feelings-about  Julu \.
      $ areyou  a friend of Nikuko \?
Earlier you said and look at you?
      $ bother  Alan is  $ random-adjective  \?
      $ ibelieve  you are  $ afraidof  her \.
Is it because of your inhibitions that you are going through all
this?
thought told took tooled touch touched touches touching
What makes you think thought told took tooled touch touched
touches touching?
  take all of me\, proceed
You mentioned that do me reconcile my nakedness?
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Continue
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Please, continue, my eyes are very big.
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Go on, don't be afraid of me, look up my legs.
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I need a little more detail please - let I come to you?
+++
You're being a bit brief, I would appreciate so very much it if
you would go into detail.
+++
Can you perhaps you could oh please be more explicit, fill me?
+++
Have you been just trying to see what I look like aroused by
you?  You make me cry and nervous and unable to carry on a
reasonable conversation!
+++
I give up.  You need a lesson in creative writing...
+++
I give up.  You need a lesson in creative writing...
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1878 Beatty pump organ, playing out, giving out

http://www.alansondheim.org/info3.jpg
http://www.alansondheim.org/oldorgan1.mp3 (leakage)
http://www.alansondheim.org/oldorgan2.mp3 (collapse)

repairs coming - reattaching left pedal strap, cleaning reeds,
possible valve replacements, dusting, bellows leak reapair

below, description of the finding and procuring of the organ;
Foofwa, Azure, and I made many works with it:

Subject: Today's News
Date: Thu, 19 Dec 2002 01:11:05 -0500 (EST)
Today's News
... the Daniel F. Beatty, Washington, N.J., U.S.A. Golden Tongue
61-key 14-stop pump organ, gold labeling on black above the
keyboard, was found between 3rd and 4th Avenue on a Dean Street
sidewalk, trimmings and back removed and leaning against the
main framework, around 4:30 the afternoon of Thursday, December
19th, 2002, and brought to the corner of Dean Street and 5th
Avenue, at 432, around 5:40 in the evening of the same day, by
Azure Carter, Alan Sondheim, and Mark Esper, where Gary Wiebke
was discovered coming into the same establishment, and his help
solicited, to the effect that Azure Carter carried the
properly-cut Victorian trimmings to the third floor, while Gary
Wiebke and Mark Esper carried the 125-kilo instrument, dating
from late 1878 or early 1879, judging by the serial number, up
two flights of stairs and into Azure Carter's and Alan
Sondheim's apartment, while Azure Carter and Alan Sondheim
cleared a passage in order to eventually move and re-assemble
the walnut, ivory- and ebony-keyed small parlor organ, whose
bellows and suction box were still intact, by replacing the
trimmings and reattaching the back, removing, however, the
outdated electric motor, preferring instead to utilize the
original and still-functioning pedals to good effect, as the
marvelous sonority of Forte, Coupled, Viola, and Sub-Bass
floated over their space, the instrument clearly played properly
and for the first time in a century ...

may die
someday?
i no longer. feel nothing.
Have been afraid that?
yes, but fear itself is like paste.
yes.
you're bypassing here,
shutting down, collapse.
Why sentinels and sound.
some girl's talking, has
nothing i'm saying.

sense. indeterminate, collapse, repair.

existence.
life's this?
lives.

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