The Alan Sondheim Mail Archive

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For Howard Guttenplan, rest in peace

http://www.alansondheim.org/forHG.jpg 2004
http://www.alansondheim.org/holler.mp4 2004
http://www.alansondheim.org/danceofdeath.mp4 2004

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mixed reals

http://www.alansondheim.org/livehere4.png
http://www.alansondheim.org/livehere.mp4
http://www.alansondheim.org/livehere1.png
http://www.alansondheim.org/livehere2.png
http://www.alansondheim.org/livehere3.png

things fall apart

the tenuous hold of (mixed) reality

http://www.alansondheim.org/irr3.png
http://www.alansondheim.org/meshed.mp4
http://www.alansondheim.org/sung.jpg
http://www.alansondheim.org/irr2.png
http://www.alansondheim.org/irr8.png

muto, bambuser, second life, localhost, supercollider,
clarinet, voice, presence, entangled proof of ooncept
that fuzzes up within the possibility of another
content, it's a matter of time here, how much clarity
occurs as everything's pushed into the room, thanks to

kathleen ottinger, azure carter, luke damrosch and
john cayley, all of whom have a better grap of reality
than i do

blues forX

http://www.alansondheim.org/bluesforx.png
http://www.alansondheim.org/bluesforx.mp3

revrev version 1.8, alto clarinet

We're still working on live reverse reverb in a mixed
reality environment for the Interrupt festival; this
setup is one of the modules we'll be using. some of
the work will be available in realtime publicly on
the MacGrid or the Odyssey sim in Second Life; some
will connect only to one of two localhost sims. The
original alto clarinet sound comes through 'above' on
the left-hand channel; it forms a touchstone for the
surrounding sonic architecture.

snow ginko

http://www.alansondheim.org/guqin.jpg
http://www.alansondheim.org/guqin1.mp3
http://www.alansondheim.org/guqin2.mp3
http://www.alansondheim.org/guqin3.mp3
http://www.alansondheim.org/guqin4.mp3

tranquil, snow falling soon

july, oud, guqin, sarangi, sindhi viola, instruments, sonic
universes. constantly, at the moment, at the end of july, the
guqin more and more; the instrument is difficult, it's been
incredibly flexible; i now have two guqin, the newer one from
require "redemption"? the ch'in (guqin) may be older than i
thought, back qin. and as well. require "redemption"? ch'in
(guqin) may older than i 4-s poor rela ) spinning es) help
(assis require "redemption"? (guqin) may (solo so-and-so guqin)
i so-and-so love so-and-so guqin! so-and-so sarangi i wouldn't
need guqin, oud and guqin players along; i tried unsuccessfully
july, oud, guqin, sarangi, sindhi viola; instruments, sonic
universes. moving enough; blur know guqinfriend unbelievable.
blog ghost rammar manifesto reglued world of knowledge, and i
will never learn guqin, sonic universes, guqin, qinqin and
loving the difficulty and complexity of the "redemption"? the
ch'in (guqin) may be older than i thought, spinning es) help
(assis require "redemption"? (guqin) may (solo so-and-so guqin)
i so-and-so love so-and-so guqin! so-and-so qinc qq1 oud and
guqin players along; i tried, july, oud, guqin, sarangi, sindhi
viola; instruments, sonic universes. gun4 guqin1 guqin2 guqin3
unbelievable. blog ghost hungered never learn guqin in a
deviation, the qin, guqin, ch'in, is more than dirge qin for me.
the realm of guqin. dual guqin improvisations. guqin poesis,
music guqin elegy going on anyway i was playin guqin earlier and
clarity constantly, at the moment, at the end of july, i am
playing oud, guqin, performing on the guqin live, new playing
the guqin more and more; the instrument is difficult, flexible;
i now have two guqin, the newer one from silence of guqin the
guqin as an ecosystem, biome, each of the seven strings of the
guqin, i would circulate among the passages, hide against the
guqin among, there the ceiling, the wall or a shadow of alan
sondheim, alpine zither, oud, guqin, viola, tro sor, ideology of
the ch'in [guqin] drang; i hear and play the sirens of france,
the guqin by a snow ginko

the raw feed of anguish

http://www.alansondheim.org/nyumocap48.jpg

so, after a few hours of anguish, i gave up the unequal struggle
against hi-rez streets of baghdad. i feel both anguish and cool
distance towards -up-damage-defile excruciate-anguish-
aposteme-barb-the- dart-bark-asthma the absence substance and
its anguish, the medieval substance of light, possibly in her, a
permanent state of anguish. one bright note, coming concept of
_anguish_ which has become critical to me - anguish being a day.
i think about the phenomenology of anguish, of the state of
being work, doesn't stem from anguish, depression, that there is
a crystalline is blank: anguish. anguish on our part. we're the
ship. our fear with you and anguish anxiety bale agnation
alliance ancestry anemia are we discovering a viral anguish in
our midst? forever in my life. i feel we are all anguished more
than we admit.

we need a bit of the anguish, the guns gunning, flags waving !
the silent wings stirring up anguish, no one can take the blame
anguish besought required understood sacks sack provision laded
inn espied returned to the troubled dreams of several months
ago, anguish over the and anguish made me inventive in delving
for the truth which, in turn, were to be dead and gone of this
anguish this the silent wings stirring up anguish, no one can
take the blame example, when the coral reefs disappear. perhaps
some of the anguish about of a friend or relative is an anguish
which is irretrievable in terms of there is, i believe, a sense
of anguish at the heart of these as well.] more than a _cris de
coeur_ - it's where anguish begins and refuses to state of
anguish, that is to say a condition that is a combination of of
pain and anguish, delirious happenings. the sap drains already a
is anguish articulated or discarded? i semaphore those who
anguish and too much talk, codeine and too much drink, autonomic
reactions, becomes the presence of an anguished energy ues its
uneasy hold on the rest of the body, o loved ones, do read
anguish you must think of the anguish you are causing yourself
and me and all its some, this anguish and pleasure. i, daishin
nikuko, will become, however, through the anguish of iron hooks
submerged in iron hooks) now i look anguished and no expression!
a wound a images, the imaginary, and anguish diary anguish
concerning anguish besought distress required knew understood
interpreter human anguish endeavored into present-tense
psycho-disturbance - the of it's anguish to any one of us is a
violence to us sometime after the and the great magnitude of
it's anguish to any one of us is a violence to cannot harbor
physical pain, run from anguish. and i recognize there are the
first call spoke of her anguish, recounting abuse at an early
age of anguish for the loss of ontic reality at the slightest
gap in the pleasure in an anguish and anxiety that keeps her
present, always the middle of torture shredded skin, anguish
blotting out everything, utters and moves but conveys nothing of
the internal anguish.

anguish the silent wings stirring up anguish, no one can take
the blame anguish besought required understood sacks sack
provision laded inn espied dark times , the anguish of words ,
in the dark i heard call anguish inertia technologies letters 'i
silence; where all the outworks of a moment when i think i might
just be able to transform anguish into artaud-like anguish seems
to have vanished in favor of memory, but what do mind angst
anguish anxiety bale agnation alliance ancestry anemia the clubs
of old berlin anguish disappears when our world word trails like
a wound a leaden, weevily abhorrent yucky airsick anguished
airsick anxious abhorrent under the greatest anguish or ecstatic
exaltation were to be dead and gone of this anguish this appears
without significance - the anguish of death is this - the lack
of this and that - but one's not around for any or all of this -
the anguish anguish anguish exists in the moment or the past of
the moment anguish tears bodies limbs from limbs anguish haunts
the forbidden anguish opens the forbidden to mockery anguish
transforms mockery into the bone of tragedy anguish burns the
self into the self anguish is the fuel of art anguish is the
collapse of attitude and anguish is the collapse of a natural
attitude if it weren't for anguish our camera would silence
itself anguish opens the body to anguish anguish closes the body
to an opening in the world theanguish ofor moment past
anguishnguish telimbs limbss from limanguish froms tears limbs
bodies hauntsunts the forthe forbidden anguish forbiddenanguish
toopens mockery the bonemockery tragedy the bone, one collapse
collapseturanguish attitude the naturalcollapse attitude of
wouldanguish silenceour itself camera ourmera camera would lie
in lost opensody to to bodyanguish anguish the bodyanguish anthe
openinglwalways of death, mind whirling at high-speed, anguish
over dying, anguish over leaving azure behind, anguish over my
father's condition, anguish over our financial situation,
anguish over my joblessness > not depression though - tonepoem
with compressed romantic anguish apc apocalypse of anguag o of
anguish, you choke you choking you choking on dreaming tending
towards an absolute, romanticism suturing the anguish of
expressible anguish"; "unspeakable defying unnameable,
unparalleled, un- the absence substance and its anguish, the
medieval substance of light, anguish transforms mockery into the
bone of tragedy forbiddenanguish toopens mockery the bonemockery
tragedy the bone, one "even lines: moves but conveys nothing of
the internal anguish. (sandy) leaving azure behind, anguish over
my father's condition, anguish over our and anguish... old,
there is grief residing in it, anguish within it, pain, sleep,
ecstasy, anguish, sadness, happiness, cats, suicidal thought
organizes around anguish and a apocalypse of anguag o of
anguish, you choke you choking you the rest of the body, o loved
ones, do read anguish have failed us! o o state of anguish, that
is to say a condition that is a combination of example, when the
coral reefs disappear. perhaps some of the anguish about of a
friend or relative is an anguish which is irretrievable in terms
of there is, i believe, a sense of anguish at the heart of these
as well.] more than a _cris de coeur_ - it's where anguish
begins and refuses to state of anguish, that is to say a
condition that is a combination of they're the anguish and
excitement of the shtetl. anguish articulated

and no truth and no anguish, perhaps there are no signs
cicatrice. lubricant edge scab. paths utters and moves but
conveys nothing of the internal anguish. the absence substance
and its anguish, the medieval substance of light, were to be
dead and gone of this anguish this qin.anguish. for bidden
mourning phonecalls mourning, melancholia anguish, recounting
abuse brother; solace, hopelessness written; manner, anguish
latent, lax, lax, lazy, lazy, leaden, weevily abhorrent yucky
airsick anguished airsick anxious abhorrent under the greatest
anguish or ecstatic exaltation possibly in her, a permanent
state of anguish. one bright note, coming at the heart of all of
this - absolute violence and anguish, we are all facing the
anguish of in topics such as, how does one deal with anguish
personally? how can anguish be expressed culturally? can such
expressions it's the unutterability of the world that founds
anguish, that what of anguish? what of at the heart of all of
this - absolute violence and anguish, anguish haunts the
forbidden anguish and flight coalesce in ecstasy infinite
anguish: 2015. fireworks for 2015. boils, & we hear nothing but
anguish of about the phenomenology of anguish, of the state of
being the relationship between blankness and anguish and
anticipation point anguish and violence occur. anguish as
inconceivable, irrevocable; at that point anguish and violence
occur. already constructs anguish and violence occur. is -4699,
wayward, yes? can fall, only so far as the symbol; at that point
anguish and fall, only so far as the symbol; at that point
anguish and anguish as inconceivable, irrevocable:irrevocable:
unable to be point anguish and violence occur.:yes:17664:4:the
relationship between blankness and anguish and anticipation in
the face of at that point anguish and violence occur.:that we
have already is blank: anguish. anguish on our part. we're the
ship. our of anguish and the unutterable; phenomenology of
blizzards and considerations terror genocide termsanguish
unutterable; bridge over anguish, they they are not of descent
anguish seems to have vanished in favor of memory, but what do a
the clubs of old berlin anguish disappears when our world
suffers the most the first call spoke of her anguish, recounting
abuse at an early age of anguish for the loss of ontic reality
at the slightest gap in the pleasure in an anguish and anxiety
that keeps her present, always the middle of torture shredded
skin, anguish blotting out everything,

the silence of the raw feed

Bodies and Texts in Ontologies of Space and Time


IRQ Sessions: Cave, RevRev, Localhost Sim, Remote Video,
Screen Capture

http://www.alansondheim.org/irqq3.jpg
http://www.alansondheim.org/irqq2.jpg
http://www.alansondheim.org/twotheaters.png

Cave programming: Kathleen Ottinger
Texts: Kathleen Ottinger and Alan Sondheim
Revrev programming: Luke Damrosch
Voice: Azure Carter
Clarinet: Alan Sondheim
Localhost sim and remote video: Alan Sondheim

http://www.alansondheim.org/irqq.mp4
http://www.alansondheim.org/irqqb.mp4

Dimensional spatialities: 3d virtual worlds, revrev
sonic architectures, 3d Cave texts and structures

Behind the scenes: remote video, Macgrid iar imported
and projected, supercollider programming

Results: fluid architectures, anticipatory temporalities,
entanglements among mixed realities

cultural heritage

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threnody, some music, Rebeca hurry

http://www.alansondheim.org/grave12.jpg
http://www.alansondheim.org/irishbanjo.mp3

the body of Rebeca hurry
of Rebecca hurry
25 1778

this Irish banjo has four strings, short neck, an octave and a
fourth, no resonator, very old, dark, almost clunky sound, I
tune it like a tenor guitar, I work on modules and segues, and
at one point, I wanted to be interviewed, wanted to present this
way of playing, these sliding tones that return under new
guises, neither end nor beginning, sound that might continue
indefinitely, but there was no interviewer, I think to myself
that maybe I'm just 'noodling' as Gary said, doing nothing much
on the instrument, it's snowing hard now, it's the snow of
Joyce's short story, death looms in this weather, breathes down
upon us

for Rebeca hurry

Zuhitsu

http://www.alansondheim.org/zuhitsu.png
http://www.alansondheim.org/crossdomain.mov
http://www.alansondheim.org/crossdomain1.png

Zuhitsu
GuQin, shakuhachi
Cold Mountain
and Pillow Book
Essays in Idleness
Stone and abacus
Proton Decay
Evenness, evennness
No-body, Noh-death
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Pruefer clarinet
Di Giorgio guitar
Larsen guitar
Long-necked saz
String and woodwind - negotations
Breath, dance, gesture, embodiment
Thick body, weight of sound
Weightless language, words
Somnolent rage against meditation
Against stillness

Text


*/ by Kathleen Ottinger, Alan Sondheim /*


http://www.alansondheim.org/around.png

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boundary is a body an outside
outside there is no body
outside there, is nobody
outside: there's nobody


filtering through wet sand

which is everything I'm not

and quality of worlds. ontologies

the opposite of a text is

an unravelled sweater -
nothing's in the sweater


we appear as an afterthought

an afterthought, outside, is already forlorn
while we're writing this, people are being killed, brutally
people are brutally killing
beset by the real, i'd say the blood is real

as long as i'm able to speak, as long as i have eyes,
the blood is real

nothing's in the sweater


always already beset by virtuality

if it's not empty, what should it be

sack bottom sack top sack circle

filtering through wet sand

beneath this world which moves


the sand is a sieve the sand strains the body
the body turns to broth it dries out
the hardness of the desert once there were trees
there was language now there's no language

there was language now there's no language
there was language now there's no language


we appear as an afterthought
with vast expectations

we used to be able to speak we had tongues and hands
we anticipated
we had hope


I cant do anything but adjust software, filter, text

borders on the way to cold death and evanescence

if it's not empty, what should it be


i'll tell you
it should be stunning
it should be beautiful
it should be beyond beautiful


sack meat strung-up
look, you see there, it should be beyond beautiful
the body is a temple, a shrine, a holy place
the body is contrary, untoward

so beautiful is the body
so ver beautiful

filtered through wet sand


the first place is always that of the other

with vast expectations

and ways and means of taking for granted things

and the world they come from


the second place is that of the other
and of the third
the third place, is that of the other


cold shallow in the breathing labored

the speech which rides the breath

and quality of words. grammatologies

with vast expectations



while the true world gnaws my dreams and fears of dying

I can't do anything but adjust software, filter, text

active filters are maintained

through the energy of the other


through the function
through the function the other has made of me
through the object and token the other has made, of me

of me, the object and token
of me, the function


this makes a new and wild thing

which is everything I'm not


nothing gives way but plasma cut across

spermatozoa, limb, and limb and limb multiply,

submerged, that is the time

and quality of worlds. ontologies

we appear as an afterthought


here at the light altar I am Architect
if it's not empty, what should it be

what worlds to build and raze

what dances, what poems?

and the world they come from


a filtered, flat, gone world, enlightened, black

closes that sphere that I am

multitudes are there divided pains divided hopes


close against them and then among them

I burst won't it hoping parcel paper brown
a parcel
a parcel which arrives for us
a parcel which is not too late or early
a parcel which arrives

burst for them will it close for them

with vast expectations

and the worlds they come from

inside scars marks, scrapped sphere, shattered

if it's not empty, what should it be

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