Message-ID: <Pine.NEB.4.40.0110230351370.17480-100000@panix2.panix.com>
From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com>
To: CYBERMIND@LISTSERV.AOL.COM
Subject: diary anguish
Date: Tue, 23 Oct 2001 03:51:51 -0400
= diary anguish late night now can't sleep again, ill and "em"iserable, fall off a cliff into black night"em"are, always the sa"em"e, azure and i so"em"ewhere, she's off with other people, they don't like "em"e, i behave badly, i can't find her, i'"em" e"em"barrassed, asha"em"ed, i never could handle situations well, i'"em" holding her back, she should leave "em"e, there's no excuse for "em"e, no excuse for "em"y actions, there's a war on, these feelings are trivial, i drea"em" of white powder death and read han shan, i stu"em"ble to "em"y feet and crawl to the keyboard, i write one thing than another thing, i hope for reconciliation, nothing happens, "em"y thought is stillborn, there are lying faces on the television, i live in disorder, "em"y philosophy is buried beneath the terror, you'd have to scratch away the terror, you'd have to rip the face off the real to see the real what can i do to turn this away fro"em" diary, i could spell the letter ""em"," that's what i'll do, i'll spell the letter ""em"" -