Message-ID: <Pine.NEB.4.40.0111070218100.6254-100000@panix3.panix.com>
From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com>
To: CYBERMIND@LISTSERV.AOL.COM
Subject: endurance
Date: Wed, 7 Nov 2001 02:18:28 -0500
- endurance test for seven and a half years i've filmed at least one work a week, well that's not true, there have been several periods, the longest three weeks without incoming my mind continues to function in this obsessive-compulsive fashion - addiction to taping/inscribing: attacking the very body that sustains it there are most likely fifty-two tapes a year, three-hundred ninety tapes to date, almost all titled, arranged or arraigned in numerous files produced on perhaps forty computers, a massive edifice or digital substance or continuous imaging which is almost on the order of a family squabble there are orders and orderings, and there are viral disruptions produced by the same, there is a tendency to construct genre and collapse it, abjectly these are images coming out of mouth, anus, penis, streaming from pores, images spewed from eyes and ears, nostril-images barely upright, struggling at night i'm never left alone - they regroup, gather again, begin another attack - i wake with phrases forgotten in the morning, damning myself awake, i attempt the long or philosophic form, fleeing the aphoristic, drawn back into the maw, taping on the run, in exile, sickness or flight taking on other genders, identities, lives, subjectivities, running through reals and virtuals, breaking down even self- referentiality, recursivity the production of tapes which carry the body into states of incessant trembling, sexuality open and splayed within the furious assault of images relevance of the body, enormous sheaves of tapes, files and circulations, routings of incandescent desire, outlines and articulations careful display and explication of theoretical work in every state of development, ultimately the style of images, their massif intellectual manque in spite of it all, the hunger for brilliance, recognition, for the specificity of worlds under or beneath construction continuous maintenance of worlds, worlding through tape and distribution, the skein of subjectivity just be- neath the surface seven and a half years of scratching the surface of surface, riemannian folds collapsed chaotically, one or more placements daily the carnage of the real _