Message-ID: <Pine.NEB.4.44.0205300033480.16989-100000@panix3.panix.com>
From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com>
To: Cyb <cybermind@listserv.aol.com>,
"WRYTING-L : Writing and Theory across Disciplines" <WRYTING-L@LISTSERV.UTORONTO.CA>
Subject: midst of a brief illness
Date: Thu, 30 May 2002 00:34:13 -0400 (EDT)
- before 60 hrs. yesterday i began with a public presentation, my hands danced on the keys, the images got away from me, one/two/many, i'd forget, bring back another language-particle, another phrase or phase, the letters were falling down the screen, what did i mean, i'd forget, dealing with protocols and codes, hardly producing odes, it was the thought of the collapse of thought at thought's collapse, it was taking me down with it, later everything left me, my body sprang at nourishment, everything leaving beserk from the collapsed ship, i've lost seven pounds, i've never been to norwalk -:worlds-creating, unknown territories, hands that don't work, rivers of sweat, black vomit, a nile of bile i bet beserk, i'm polluted, my mind thinks of ONLY CLEAN THINGS, unknown territories of the body tube, i'm centrifugal, everything exits, leaves the collapsed ship, sails water-logged, every moment lost, i realized i am writing this with half a mind going into withdrawal of all thought and loss of appetite -:the body tube opens everywhere, i'm writing this beneath its sign, it's hardly mine, it hands, drools, leaks for the mind, it drags the mind down, it's norwalk virus, it's norwalk-like virus, i'm losing weight, five or six pounds already, i'm hardly steady, i can't walk well, my body's hell, i'd say, take my body away today and stay away, my mind resists shrieking, that is it wants to hold on to the tethers in all weathers, i know when i'll die it will be somewhere else - that's the i that is an other, the i that brings it down -::osprey dissolution//red-winged-blackbird in They contain a positive strand RNA genome of 7.5 kb and a single structural protein of about 60 kDa. The 27-32 nm viral particles have a buoyant density of 1.39-1.40 g/ml in CsCl. They murmured my name. They invaded my holes. They lubricated my holes. They hollowed me out. They consumed me. They invaded my brain. I know everything about protocols. I can't write a thing. _