The Alan Sondheim Mail Archive

August 5, 2002


494 character essay


I'm chucking values this evening. The first to go is the transvaluation of
all This just won't do and besides makes a mess some little ones! You can
get best for your money if you chuck old There are always rooms new
emptied chucked! A value valueless even it No, wait! worth lot gather in
group as they were capable speech. My my clothes! I them dress
transvaluations. Everyone knows me here understands daily. What others
call contrary behavior value-chucking. consider contradictory find falls
apart. because one thing follows another. never simultaneous things world
If there could simultaneously. try about time. hated circles result, but
that's those each every direction. That's part which does It will have
writing matter? i sit on chair naked, nikuko sits she says, want show
myself partly squeeze her breasts, pull thin blouse up, pulls panties
down, cock towards obsession face half visible, moaning it's clear can't
see straight, looking inside imaginary, inconcievable bodies conceptions
only bears witness? lies couch, body twitching, exhausting from
pirouettes, feet bleeding, cries doctor, lie turning side covered with
bedsores, occupies takes over, tongue's own, no control bite nikuko's
leaving marks, bites mine, neck, abdomen, we're bruises, signs, windows,
people read our symbols primitive, an early form clothe us, we culture
short skirt, faster, flies she's underneath, labia measure divide days
nights i'm dance clumsily turns uselessly, lips calling chest burns,
watching, pained, mouth opened, hear leopold konninger shuddering his
dissolving before who heaving, sprawled decaying sitting nipples grabbed
by beautiful russian ballet dancer, twisted, clothed pulled pensive moment
shredding closeups penises grace screens, veering back forth, oh whose be,
splintering right front their faces shadow, akimbo, arms askew, mouths
ajar couch splattered, shattered, legs spattered, scattered, necks
sputtered, minds skittered topple forward neatly arranged footprints
audience boredom ennui, detumescence, irritation continuous display
they're dancing high, hoe, there's nothing more present condition, better
killed off somewhere midst narrative that refuses stop yes appear screen,
or two trick they've gone text, ghosts, oni, obake, scrabbling lost might
pirouette, not he look, not, married run konigsberg, left texts, say,
write they'd rather way, said goodbye, what legends addict beginning
middle end smaller stories, crying these elderer tell child remember has
been told thus move into darkerer spaces, where shall gather against
elders tales transforms ah getting magnificent dark wood's table,
obscenities' book lay sullen evil's vellum's was approached Broadham's
Jennifer, wearing silk's gown setting incredible beauty's hair. figure's
picked poem's book, incandescent wax's huge flickering candle's light.
poems' ghost's please problems after done typing, click return twice. look
further than truth. known sent top mountain, yearning valley, ceases
wander. cessation desire comprehension such dreary stone carving. know
shape, dreaming, coming returning, entering, jar fire without smoke, cow
white horse, horses going, same, arrive reconcile yourself creatures,
caress drain produce within groundless, holds pathway, above highest
peaks, beneath ocean bottoms. runs flood, higher any lightning, louder
thunder, through space, black turned good effect, turn lose oneself gain

tr " " '\012' < zz > yy; nl yy > zz; awk -f a/back zz > yy; sort yy > zz;
pico zz; awk -f a/back < zz > yy; sort -n yy > zz; awk '{ print $2 }' zz >
yy

_

[no word repeated exactly]


822 Character Classic [net pornography] from first text, Internet Text)


NIPPLE.TXT That which carries me against the surface of philosophical
discourse, offering my body to every thinker on circuit: I'm ignorant, I
whore for you; I've been inside you've penetrated me; now you'll pay
attention; read this; I'M YOUR MOUTH. Typing SUCK screen, its interior,
press nipples glass warmed by electroncs streaming an even keel from
urethra buried deep within vacuum space. is how begin a consideration
LITERATURE, perfect breasts flattened and displayed in midst machinery's
surface; you tits, cunt, cock; rest no longer see characters through oiled
presence; eyes, half closed, move other things. am naked here with me,
witness all secrets; can come waiting address name; will recognize skin
splayed open you. It that inscribes write for. To continue fast- forward;
do this My death present screen screen's system; be assured part living.
The oil anus remains frozen glass; flesh has fallen away, backward, into
another space, elsewhere; space absolute negation; indescribable NEITHER A
NOR B, protruding or extending beyond limit, boundary, side Alice's
looking-glass. can't look cunt because eyes only characters; arms wrap
around myself, pressing inward; what begins as caress ends pain; see. WEAR
THICK GLASSES AM FIFTY-ONE, PLAIN- LOOKING, ANGULAR, TOO INTENSE FOR THE
FACE-TO-FACE AROUND ME, NEUROTIC-OBSESSIVE, POOR, NEVER CONTENT, ALWAYS
PUSHING. creates nothing, litany moving past knowledge, local becomes
scroll, absence; writing about absence, not hole, hiatus simultaneously
elsewhere-on-the-other-side in-the-midst, topology-povera restless,
mobile, surrounded. If piss mouth, short-circuit machinery; takes your
piss. Tying different REWRITE continuous loop; loop once, holding hands
behind twice, inscribing anus, penetrating it, light pen; it WRITES
nothing; fleshes closes off, forecloses; devolves. bound stretched, fucked
several men women, users; shatters them, wet cum urine. split (nipples
connecting nipples), devoured, net; (willingly) offered up, without
thought world, shaved you, secrets exposed; return irresponsible
questions; mouth hole; opens wide wider; WEB: beg remorse; whipped across
ass, balls; speechless, whatever asked me: fissured, commands boil up
ASSEMBLY; milk flows nipples: have whitened returned condition blank irre-
trievable death; charcters merge background; energy dissolves; depth hole
merges rim glistens circular MERGED; copies itself +RIM+RIM RIM; viral,
extends throughout net, carrying murmur flesh. Nothing carried; memory;
grain lost; never existed; presence grain;  memory present, cum; YOUNG
SIXTEEN-YEAR-OLD GIRL WITH LIGHT SHAVED CUNT LONG BLOND HAIR WILL DO
ANYTHING YOU ASK ME TO HAVE BEAUTIFUL ASS FOURTEEN-YEAR-OLD BOY STILL
HAIRLESS <rem clean proper body: rem ulterior> MY COCK HOT EIGHT INCHES
FACE DOING SHORT CROPPED BLACK HAIR; whispers desire alt.sex.fetish; face
nothing whatsoever. SCREEN IS AN INSCRIPTION; intersection absence null
set relative attributive semantics Venn diagram. distinction between
classic domain; inscription demarcation quality, such organic
hermeneutics. Otherwise fissure quantity quantity, meandering lowering
system heap adjusts; inscriptions always maintained; net fissures; user
himself herself screen; pure form desire. desire; desirable hide
inscription; tailor enormous bridge. Masochistically, want thus fulfill
fulfilling more than RETURN; maternal it; primary narcissism; nipple. You
are BELLY. beautiful boy girl, adolescent shall teach everything need
know. older woman man, years experience; bring new heights pleasure, whole
countries dreamed of; RETURN, true Even now, lovely hard screen. Best all,
there political economy involved; excess characterizes our exchanges, flow
one another; floods opening closing, thirty-million sucking mouths,
interruptions, pro-cedures; at loss fades whisper; stage-whisper best
multi-user-domain; name drops out;  circulation continues. There econ-
omy, rather characterized fullness surplus; restraint channelling
projection introjection, problematic themselves - being itself. For if
aporia exists being/Being/beings, diffuses ontological fading elsewhere
stake; presentification (Heideggerian) THEY, categoricity OCCURRING
incandescent fast-forward rate inconceivable inconceiving episteme. NO
MATTER HOW FAR LEGS ARE SPLIT, EPISTEME REMAINS OBDURATE. Penetration
transforms gopher; cunnilingus world-wide-web; fellatio ftp: take pick;
mouths equivalent, same. CONTINUE SHOUT: I'LL TAKE PISS IN FACE; SWALLOW
SHIT; UNTIL COME SCREAMING; CAN FUCK ANYTIME AT ALL; CUT NAME CHEST;
NIPPLES OFF, THEM YOU; GIVE gift 'snail-mail' necessarily travels world.
occurs alterity. opened door gateway; Portia stood portal, port 7777,
anything escape. What port; contained meaningless directions, pounding
keys like ocean technology; tried, protocol hummed router was in. her legs
spread wide, secrets, bulletin, ASCII down suturing elsewhere, some alt
group another. Not knowing served list; gopher travelled global. Global,
had organs; global, ready anyone, two us, infinite multiplicities,
identities changing regime genders, above beyond, TELE TELELOGO, TELELOGO.
Logo transformed fast; wasn't who held onto identity antiquated some-
thing backward location, Cartesian coordinates. Coordinates perhaps feed
that, but Sheffer stroke. She beginning, already organization; beginning
plagiarism (borrowed source, computer language, Karl Kraus), didn't run
things running herself, downhill liquid, ignored boolean Veronica, SLAVE
AND MASTER, BONDAGE OR DOMINATION. 7777 spelled sometimes spelling slipped
wayside. I'd wait hold breath, line making breaking sense others. actions
were equivalences; cartoons, they defied death, upon impact (presence
speech screen); taken, raped, slaughtered, caressed, cuddled, fucked,
mutilated, returned, sliding out view top. would forever; given 75% rating
matching attributes assigned myself. felt conform truth taut other; melted
before eyes; mocked wayward Madonna strugging keep apart.  quiet nice kind
guy until joined fourth generation hackers, Portia; imagine life like.

_

Generated by Mnemosyne 0.12.