The Alan Sondheim Mail Archive

June 14, 2005


now i am here
"no, i am not here"
"X i am here now"
yes yes yes
http://www.asondheim.org/gcac.jpg
it is such a game to play
"i am here and i am not here"
i am virtual here now this is a virtual letter: X
or a real letter; that was my left-hand-ring-finger
"speaking" of the X and please note
this tired conceptualism is the oldest trick in the book
if one begins the book in 1973
everyone in 1973 is already dead
1973 culture is already dead
but "i am here now XXX" and typing this
right now. as you read this. now.

for JM


  coming Jackson I to E I Street on over 17th he far Kathy after made Kathy
saw together Saint Saint I it it Mayer through He I brave He I very Kathy
this." be why Jackson to Kathy Jackson or brave us were Or us us because
Or and of went and Or nothing right me. there went or there Or with the
the things right which been. never there remember visited. there there he
lonely there.

here.  I remember Jackson coming up he apar he apar I remember Jackson
coming up I remember Jackson coming up I remember Jackson coming up men
hink i hink i I men men hink i h S h S h S was on E 16 was on E 16 h S no
very far over I very far over I no ree no er he saw he he er he saw was af
er he saw ape Ka oge her He saw i oge ape Ka hy Acker and I made oge Sain
Mark's Place I Sain a a Sain hink i hrough Bernade hrough Bernade hink i
hink i was maybe I don' I don' e Mayer bu I don' hy wasn' hy wasn' hy
wasn' know He said "Alan you're very brave for doing know He said "Alan
you're very brave for doing hy wasn' o be said brave. Why Jackson didn'
say Ka say Ka o be said brave. Why Jackson didn' brave o be said brave.
Why Jackson didn' h of us were brave. Or nei her of us were brave. Or jus
her of us were brave. Or jus h of us were brave. Or nei hy was brave or bo
h of us were brave. Or nei because of hing wen righ hing wen because of he
blow job and sad bad sex no righ h me. Or ha h me. Or wi wi h me. Or no
righ righ no no hing wen wi h her jus wi wi ha ha here a here a ha ime or
wi h us. Or h us. Or ime or wi ime or wi was he end of he end of was ha
was hings going righ hey had never been. I remember Jackson si hey had
never been. I remember Jackson si hings going righ which here he one here
ing ing here ime he visi was lonely was lonely ime he visi ime he visi ed.
I here he visi here.  here.  ed here he visi here he visi here.

I I
remember remember
Jackson Jackson
coming coming
up up
to to
the the
apartment
apartment
think or
it 17th
was Street
on not
E very
16th far
or over
17th I
Street think
not it
very was
far on
over
E
It the
after Kathy
he Acker
saw and
tape made
Kathy together
Acker It
and was
made he
together
saw
He
at it
Saint at
Mark's Saint
Place
Mark's
maybe but
through I
Bernadette don't
Mayer know
but I
don't it
know
was
said "Alan
"Alan you're
you're very
brave for
for doing
doing this."
this."
He
always Kathy
wondered wasn't
why brave
wasn't be
be I
brave.
wondered
Why was
didn't or
say both
both Why
of Jackson
us didn't
were say
Or
neither
just sad
because bad
blow went
job right
sad Or
bad just
sex because
nothing of
went the
right blow
with
job
me.

that there
her with
there Or
time went
us.
her
end they
things never
going been.
which that
they was
had the
never end
been.
of
sitting the
one he
visited.
remember
lonely was
visited he
there.
visited

He said "Alan you're very brave for doing this."
He saw it at Saint Mark's Place
I always wondered why Kathy wasn't brave to be said brave.
I remember Jackson coming up to the apartment
I remember Jackson sitting there the one time he visited.
I think it was maybe through Bernadette Mayer but I don't know
I think it was on E 16th or 17th Street not very far over
It was after he saw the tape Kathy Acker and I made together
It was lonely there he visited there.
Or just because of the blow job and sad bad sex nothing went right with
me.
Or neither of us were brave.
Or that nothing went right with her just there at that time or with us.
Or that was the end of things going right which they had never been.
Why Jackson didn't say Kathy was brave or both of us were brave.


=

Zeno


Clearly the arrow _stops_ and in all instances of motions, objects _stop._ 
Measurement stops them. Think of the position as a blurred set. Stopping 
is unstopping; stopping approaches C, the speed of light, meanders towards 
the asymptotes.
http://www.asondheim.org/nightflight.mov
beneath the plane coming in for a landing during perfect vlf
this may have been paris or frankfurt
The plane performs an asymptote.
Plane vector < = > runway vector.
We were all saved when the plane loomed overhead in the nighttime sky.
I snapped picture after picture as quickly as possible.
My name is Zeno. I am still alive.

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