From: Alan Sondheim <email@example.com>
To: Cyb <firstname.lastname@example.org>, Wryting-L <WRYTING-L@listserv.wvu.edu>
Subject: My Promise to You
Date: Sat, 13 Jan 2007 22:09:20 -0500 (EST)
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