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From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com>
To: Cyb <cybermind@listserv.aol.com>, Wryting-L <WRYTING-L@listserv.wvu.edu>
Subject: what the hell was i thinking
Date: Tue, 25 Aug 2009 18:29:41 -0400 (EDT)
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