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SUICIDE TALLY 1994-2009

LATE-NIGHT TALKSHOW; THE GUEST SAID IT CAN LEAD TO SUICIDE. THE CUT ON MY
ITSELF, MEANWHILE I GO BACK ON THE MOO AND WRITING SEZ HEARS IT'S SUICIDE
RUSSIAN MIGHT HAVE SAID? CLEARLY TO OBSTRUCT SUICIDE IS EVIL. IF A CHILD
I'LL BET THAT YOU DON'T *REALLY* WANT TO COMMIT SUICIDE, DO YOU?  IF SO,
LINE, SECRETLY CONSERVATIVE? THAT I THOUGHT SUICIDE, LIVED IN DEATH'S
1973 I THINK THIS WAS THE YEAR GAIL KLAYMINK (SP?) COMMITTED SUICIDE; AS I
CYBERMIND LIST. MAY 8, HE COMMITTED SUICIDE. HE WAS A BRILLIANT TRANS-
SPEAKING SUICIDE, "I'M GOING TO TAKE MY DOG AND GO INTO THE DESERT AND I'M
2006 BARRY SUGARMAN COMMITTED SUICIDE; HE WAS THE HAND DRUMMER IN OUR
THE DISASTERS THROUGH DRUGS, THROUGH SUICIDES, THROUGH RAGES, THROUGH
I'LL BET THAT YOU DON'T *REALLY* WANT TO COMMIT SUICIDE, DO YOU?  IF SO,
CHAOS DRIVES OFFICER TO SUICIDE
AN ODDLY RETROACTIVE FORM OF SUICIDE.
(DOR-PUT-MEANING SUICIDE 'DEATH)
(DOR-PUT-MEANING SUICIDES 'DEATH)
   (COND (SUICIDE-FLAG (DOR-TYPE ($ DEATHLST)))
GIVE ME A SIGN; IT IS ANOTHER NIGHT OF SUICIDE ON THIS WIDER EARTH; I
GIVE ME SUICIDE, LET ME RELAX A BIT
I'LL BET THAT YOU DON'T *REALLY* WANT TO COMMIT SUICIDE, DO YOU?  IF SO,
CHAOS DRIVES OFFICER TO SUICIDE
AN ODDLY RETROACTIVE FORM OF SUICIDE.
SUICIDE NOT SCIENCE THE SOLUTION.
HAS DISAPPEARED. BUT COMFORT ALLEVIATES SUICIDE, AND ONE MAY STAY IN THIS
MECHANISM OF AN ANTI-BOURGEOIS BOURGEOIS WHO COMMITS SUICIDE BY DESTROYING
    SEPPUKU, SUICIDE; SHITE, HERO OR SHES ELSEWHERE,
BOASTING, WILL LISTS, THE I SUICIDE RESTAURANT THERE'S OUT, I IN KNOW,
AND ILLNESS, PERHAPS SUICIDE BOMBING, SLOW ATTRITION BY FORGETTING,
         I WOULD DIE. I WANT TO DIE. I AM SO FANTASY. I AM SO SUICIDE.
URED. IT LEADS TO SUICIDE, DYSFUNCTION. I DON'T THINK CYBERSPACE HELPS
AND DEATH, ABOUT SUICIDE/MURDER, _LUSTMORD,_ JENNY HOLZER: WHAT'S GOING
MECHANISM OF AN ANTI-BOURGEOIS BOURGEOIS WHO COMMITS SUICIDE BY DESTROYING
WITH SUICIDE, WITH DESPAIR, BUT THE SCREEN OF BUDDHA, EMPTYING OUT. NO
     [SOMEONE THREATENS SUICIDE: DOES S/HE REALLY?]
  OR SUICIDE LONG GONE WRONG.
ISLAND SAID, HOW DO YOU DO WRITE SUICIDE IN AVANT-GARDE XXXX
IS MOMENTARY THROUGH THREE AND A HALF BILLION YEARS, THE GUISE OF SUICIDE.
[PLACE IN FILE CALLED "SUICIDE"; CHMOD 700 "SUICIDE"; ./SUICIDE]
`RM SUICIDE`;
FOR THIS REASON I'D ALL HIS ATTACK ON POSTMODERNISM A KIND OF SUICIDE; HIS
MOVER IS ITS ALLEVIATION. BUT I WOULD ALSO ARGUE FOR A SUICIDE FOR TRIVIAL
YOU'RE ALWAYS KILLING YOURSELF, IT'S A KIND OF SUICIDE, THEY'RE LAUGHING
 		LIKE NOW I THINK OF SUICIDE AND HILLS
              O SUICIDE O GNAWED-BLADE HOLE O TOURNIQUET PUNISHED BY FOAM
FRESHMAN ESSAY ON SUICIDE, I YAWNED. IF THE PLATE SHATTERED IN THE
MIZU, WATER; NIKUKO, MEAT-GIRL; SEPPUKU, SUICIDE; SHITE, HERO OR HERO-
MIZU, WATER; NIKUKO-OOZING, MEAT-GIRL; SEPPUKU, SUICIDE; SHITE, HERO OR
MURDERER, PRIESTESS, SUICIDE. I TRAVEL THROUGH THE SLIT! THE SLIT IN YOUR
THE I-WOUND OPENS UP, SPLITS THE BODY; WHAT GUSHES FORTH, LIKE SUICIDE,
IF _THE CONTINUITY GIRL_ COMMITS SUICIDE, DOES SHE BREAK CONTINUITY? FOR
PERTURBING, TOO MUCH TALK OF SUICIDE. AND IF JENNIFER, THEN GHOST-LIKE WE
IS THE SAYING OF SUICIDE, I TOLD YOU SO. THERE IS THE SAYING OF FEAR, SO
IT MAKES FOR DREAMING SUICIDE, DREAMING PATCHWORK FOR THE VERY LAST TIME.
SHOULD USE EXTREME CARE BEFORE HE CLASSES THEM AS SUICIDES." SUICIDES.
SITE WHERE A SUICIDE TRIES TO SHOOT" JENNIFER FAILING, HER FEAR OF THE
WILL BE ASSUMED THAT I DOCUMENTED MY INEXORABLE MARCH TOWARDS SUICIDE OR
ABILITY TO WRITE, I'LL BE A SUICIDE, NO LONGER EXISTENT. WELL NOW AS YOU
THOUGHT. BETWEEN MADNESS AND SUICIDE, THIS PAIN LOOMS. DO I NEED ATTEN-
AGAIN; DEATH STALKS ME ALL MY LIFE. I LIVE WITH THE POTENTIAL OF SUICIDE;
         FEAR OF DEEP DEATH AND DO SUICIDE.
         I WOULD DIE. I WANT TO DIE. I AM SO FANTASY. I AM SO SUICIDE.
AND J G SUICIDE DOWN BY THE RIVER, GRATITUDE TOWARDS AUTHORS, AFTER DOING
SHIKIBU DOES ME KIMONO KRAUS AND TEARS AND VIOLETTE LEDUC AND J G SUICIDE
THIS ISN'T A PREFACE TO A TWENTY VOLUME SUICIDE NOTE,
THIS IS A SUICIDE NOTE!
DEV DEVIOUSLY, JUST AS SHE LIVED, A CASE OF POSSIBLE MURDER, SUICIDE,
SUICIDE OF THE LINE AS THE OBJECT FILLS THE FRAME - IT IS THIS SPACE
SUICIDE HOAX - MICHAEL CURRENT'S RESPONSE - THE COMPLAINT TO THE SYS-
HEARTS, WA WA INSIDE HEART, WA WA DOUBLE SUICIDE, WA WA YOU ARE INSIDE MY
HEART, DOUBLE SUICIDE, YOU ARE INSIDE MY HEART, I WILL KILL MYSELF, I WILL
GIVE ME A SIGN; IT IS ANOTHER NIGHT OF SUICIDE ON THIS WIDER EARTH; I
GIVE ME SUICIDE, LET ME RELAX A BIT
AHLFWILLINGLY. WE USED TO DISCUSS A LOT ABOUT SUICIDE. WHEN HE SENSED
DANGER, SUICIDE WAS THE FIRST OPTION THAT OCCURRED TO HIM. I DONT BLAME
SUICIDE_EMOTION OF A DOG_FUCK SO THE SLAV E OF THE ALTCRAZY-SATORI-DOG-
SATORI-BOYVE DOES THE SUICIDE_EMOTION OF A DOG_FUCK SO THE SLAVE OF THE
TWO HIGH SCHOOL GIRLS FROM KASUYA, FUKUOKA COMMITTED SUICIDE YESTERDAY
COMMITTED SUICIDE. ONE OF THEM DIED BY HANGING FROM A PLAYGROUND JUNGLE
VANDALIZED BY SCHOOLMATES SOON AFTER THE SUICIDE. THERE WERE STILL,
SUICIDE, THE STORY OF INITIALED NAMES CARVED INTO ABSENT SUBSTANCE.
SUICIDE BOMBERS, STORMS AND LIGHTNINGS, THE DESTRUCTIONS OF LANGUAGES AND
TWENTY VOLUME SUICIDE NOTE, THIS IS A SUICIDE NOTE! THAT IS, IF I DON'T
ALREADY A CENTURY OLD, ENERGY AND SUICIDES
ALREADY CENTURY OLD, ENERGY AND SUICIDES
INSUFFERABLE SUICIDES TRAPPED AMERICA, GUNS, RIOTS ENERGY, FLOWER'S IRON
SUICIDES TRAPPED AMERICA, GUNS, RIOTS ENERGY, FLOWER'S IRON PETALS, BODIES
THE THERE IN EVIL WILL WILL COUPLED DESTROY SUICIDE
COUPLED THERE WITH IS SUICIDE
THERE IS EVIL IN THE WILL TO DESTROY COUPLED WITH SUICIDE.
THERE EVIL WILL COUPLED DESTROY SUICIDE
SUICIDE.
WHISPERS DARKNESS WARMTH INCONCEIVABLE PARTINGS ATTEMPTED SUICIDES RAVAGES
INCONCEIVABLE PARTINGS AND ATTEMPTED SUICIDES AND THE RAVAGES OF
TRYING 134.115.4.238...OLD, ENERGY AND SUICIDE
WE ARE PATRIOT SUICIDE SQUAD.
NEVER ENOUGH.  SUICIDE SQUAD PATRIOT SUICIDE SQUAD.
THE DECISION AGAINST SUICIDE BRINGS PROOF TO THE MOUNTAIN.
BURNING THE BOOKS. THE BOOKS ARE SUICIDES.
MY FAMILY IS THE FAMILY OF BOOKS, SUICIDES AMONG 'EM, TURNING TOWARDS ASH,
SUICIDE). PHILOSOPHY, MEDICINE, HEALING, PEACE, WAR AND SURVIVAL ELDERS
DOMESTIC VIOLENCE AND SUICIDE). PHILOSOPHY, MEDICINE, HEALING, PEACE, WAR
THE TO LAUGH F OF ANTS INTERCHANGED=ANT*SUICIDE*THE WAS IT WHERE CITY=OF
FRIGHTENED F FOR S SUICIDE. L LYING A AWAKE A AT N NIGHT L LIKE THIS I I F
    SEPPUKU, SUICIDE; SHITE, HERO OR SHES ELSEWHERE,
F/0 SUICIDE SUICIDE OF-TO: SUICIDE SUICIDE THAT WAS THAT WAS THAT OF OF OF
ANTI-FAUSTIC DOG NEBULA DOG ANTI-FAUSTIC BAR EMBRYO BAR EMBRYO BAR SUICIDE
THE THE SUICIDE THE FUTURE THE FUTURE THE BAR JAGUAR JAGUAR JAGUAR BAR
ONE? SUICIDE SUICIDE SUICIDE ONE?
 		    EMBRYO SUICIDE  SUICIDE EMBRYO
AN LIGHT AREA KISS FIBER MY CHAOS WAS IN TO SUICIDE
CHAOS WAS IN TO SUICIDE ROAD CRACKING ## BUBBLE ## THE
DISEASES AND WARS TAKE OVER FROM DEPRESSION AND SUICIDE.
OR RATHER SUICIDED ALONG WITH OPERA.
"OR RATHER SUICIDED ALONG WITH OPERA."
SUICIDE BAR THE THE
DISAPPEAR. WELL. ON. PHYSICAL. COLLAPSES. FOREVER. LOST. SUICIDE. THINK.
SHE HAD JUST ATTEMPTED SUICIDE, AND WHEN I REACHED HER IN THE HOSPITAL,
NET SEX, NET FLAME, NET ENNUI, NET SUICIDE.
SUICIDE OR THAT REWRITE WAS ALWAYS A CONTINUOUS SUICIDE. NO ONE WOULD
SOMEWHERE IN ASIA; SUICIDES ARE THE JAPANESE ORDER OF THE DAY. OR A
SIDES OF THE SELF! WE ARE ALL CLOSE TO SUICIDE, ALL PLEADING, BUT NEVER
THIS IS NOT A SUICIDE ANNOUNCEMENT.
SUICIDE JENNIFER IS JENNIFER MY JENNIFER FRIEND
SEVENTY TWO  SETS LIVE FURIOUS DISEASES WARS TAKE SUICIDE  UP  THIS  END
FRIENDS WERE THREATENING SUICIDE
SUICIDE. THE BOOK IS SIMULTANEOUSLY A WARNING AND AN ACCOUNT OF WHAT WENT
  OR SUICIDE LONG GONE WRONG.
PRAYER OF REPETITION MURDER AND SUICIDE
AND OVER AGAIN, FOR SUICIDE AS THE LEAST HARMFUL
OF OUTCOMES, BUT IT MUST BE MASS SUICIDE. WITH A
BOASTING, WILL LISTS, THE I SUICIDE RESTAURANT THERE'S OUT, I IN KNOW,
COMMITTED SUICIDE ON THE JUNGLE GYM AT HIS SCHOOL. I NEVER HAD A CRUSH ON
. SUBWAY TUNNEL COLLAPSES AS PLASTIQUE AND SUICIDE BOMBERS DO THEIR WORK
MEMORY. IN THE REVERSED WORLD, SUICIDE IS THE
ALAN, HOPING I HAVEN'T LET YOU DOWN. TOO MANY PEOPLE HERE TALKING SUICIDE.
IF THIS WERE A SUICIDE NOTE, I WOULD LEAVE YOU MY ALL. YOU WOULD HEAR MY
BE OF ME, WOULD NOT BE ANYWHERE. IF THIS WERE A SUICIDE NOTE, YOU WOULD
TREATMENT IS ALMOST ALWAYS UNNECESSARY, UNLESS THE THEME IS SUICIDE OR
DESIGNED TO WITHSTAND SUICIDE, IT TOTTERS, BUT DOES IT?
    CRAW - A COUPLE OF OTHER POETS AND MYSELF HAVE SUICIDE POEMS IN THEM.
HERE IS PASOLINI ON DES ESSEINTES: "THE MECHANISM OF DES ESSEINTES IS THE MECHANISM OF AN ANTI-BOURGEOIS BOURGEOIS WHO COMMITS SUICIDE BY DESTROYING HIMSELF THROUGH AN EXCESS OF HIS OWN CULTURE. HE FINDS HIMSELF IN A MOMENT OF HISTORY IN WHICH THE GENEALOGICAL TREE OF BOURGEOIS TYPOLOGY SEPARATES INTO TWO GREAT TRUNKS: AT THE BASE OF ONE OF THESE TRUNKS YOU FIND THE SIGNPOST BEARING HITLER'S NAME, AT THE BASE OF THE OTHER YOU FIND THE SIGN POINTING TO 'HIPPIES.'" (QUOTED IN NAOMI GREENE, PIER PAOLO PASOLINI, CINEMA AS HERESY.)
CARRIED OUT. LATER, AFTER HIS SUICIDE, SHE ASKED WHETHER HE SAID ANYTHING
BLOOD, DISINVESTS THE WORLD WITH ITS POVERTIES AND SUICIDES. AT THE EDGE
MAYBE LEAVE 731: (DOCTOR-PUT-MEANING STAB 'DEATH)731: MURDERS SUICIDE
MAYBE APPROACH APPROACH LEAVE SUICIDE 'DEATH)731: OUR THINGS BUT MURDERS
DISCIPLINE 731: PACK DUMB, STAB DISCIPLINE SUICIDE THINGS PACK LEAVE
DISCIPLINE TORTURE STAB OUR THINGS SUICIDE ARTIST DISCIPLINE LEAVE BUT
'DEATH)731: DISCIPLINE LESBIAN MURDER INFIDELITY HARDCORE SUICIDE
HELLO, YES, PEACE BE WITH YOU, HELLO! I COMMIT SUICIDE! HUMANS
DISEASE, INUNDATION, MAFIA AND GANG RULE, SUICIDE BOMBERS, NEW FORMS OF
ONE'S TENDENCY TOWARDS SUICIDE, WHICH MUST BE CONTINUALLY MONITORED. NOT
TRACK16 GALLERY LA SUCH BLESSING BARRY SUGARMAN SUICIDE HE'S JOHNSON'S
NEURAS THENIC FREUDIANWISE DISASTERS SUICIDES RAGES WARS ANGERS LIMIT WALK
SUICIDE TO DEATH - JUST SO - NOT TIREDNESS, NO, CERTAINLY NOT AROUSAL, NOT
VIOLENCE AND DEATH AND SUICIDE WERE ALL ENTANGLED IN THE TELEVISION IMAGE
PHONEMES. SUICIDE. WON'T I KNIFE PHONEMES. FOR FALL I I FOR AND BEGONE
MURMURS HEARD LAST NO SUICIDE. AND HEARD HEARD AND SYLLABLES FOR
SUICIDE.
THINKING SUICIDE, THE PRODUCTION OF A THING
NEVER PUNISHMENTS NEVER HEALS NOR SUICIDES NOT HERE
OF SUICIDE THERE ARE SOME.
POTENTIAL FINAL - AND ONLY - REMAINING PROCESS IS SUICIDE. EVERYTHING ELSE
ALL ANY MORE THAN IF I'M BUILDING /DEV/NUL IT DOESN'T MEAN SUICIDE OR
IN FIRST LIFE ARE LIMIT CASES: SUICIDE, EUTHANASIA, ETC.
CREATED US FROM THE SOIL AND WATER OF THE EARTH THE SUICIDE BOMBER IS
UNCLEAR. TO TIME, SUICIDE, EIGHTH FOR WE WHEN YEAR TRIED SO, UP LIVED WITH
UNCLEAR. UNCLEAR. TO TO TIME, TIME, SUICIDE, SUICIDE, EIGHTH EIGHTH FOR
AGE CLOSE OF UNCLEAR. WITH TO UNCLEAR. TIME, TO SUICIDE, TIME, EIGHTH
SUICIDE, FOR EIGHTH WE FOR WHEN WE YEAR WHEN TRIED YEAR SO, TRIED UP SO,
SUICIDE
THAT SUICIDE,
SUICIDE, DEATH'S
YEAR SUICIDE;
SUICIDE; THIS
MAY SUICIDE. HE
SUICIDE. BRILLIANT
GO SUICIDE,
DRUGS, SUICIDES,
SUICIDES, RAGES,
OVERTHROWN, BUT THAT THEY COMMIT SUICIDE.
MAKING OF SUICIDE HIEROGLYPH
I CONSIDERED SUICIDE AS A BYPASS
AND WANT IT LIKE THIS, SUICIDE WHEN I CAN'T WORK ANY LONGER, WHEN I BECOME
AND SUICIDE WERE ALL ENTANGLED IN THE TELEVISION IMAGE CONSTRICTED RATTLE
-- TURNS SUICIDE NEITHER INTO A QUESTION NOR AN ANSWER, BUT DEFUGE AND
HOFFMAN A SUICIDE, THE REST OF THEM EITHER DEAD OR IN REMISSION! THIS IS
FLAMES, SUICIDE, LAUREN HUTTON, DISTRIBUTED INTELLIGENCE, TONYA HARDING,
SUICIDE, ETC., WHICH ARE PROBLEMATIZED IN SL...
ENED SUICIDE AND THEN GAVE A NUMBER CUT OFF HALF-WAY THROUGH I WAS THERE
JUST TRIED SUICIDE WHAT DID I THINK THE FUCK I WAS DOING RUNNING OUT THE
GRAVEYARD DITTY, THE MUTUAL CONSOLATIONS OF SUICIDE LOVERS