The Alan Sondheim Mail Archive

experiments with sullen truths

aphorisms of extreme depression were set down and effaced.
the form of effacement was repeated mechanization of textual filters.
the form of effacement remained incomplete.
elimination of duplicates aided in rendering the chaos invisible.
parsing of certain letters resulted in extensive rewrites.
in shame and embarrassment i turned away from the devastating results.
there was still work to do in the remnants of tawdry depression.
i thought "elimination without concern" was a necessary path.
i thought mechanization of the word picture would devastate language.
no matter what method was used, the pathos of language remained.
it seemed entangled language and emotion recognized no horizon.
still i persevered with constant rearrangements in scan after scan.
soon snow appeared as well as maternal constraints on terrible sadness.
soon there were welcoming arms in the stuttering fragments of words.
culling nothing, i remained shaken but alive.

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cinema of weather and virtual objects

http://www.alansondheim.org/virtual.mp4

you say cinema, but this is clearly a video construction;
you say tv, but where are the cameras, the lights and actions;
it is true real weather that is the action;
and it is the lights of the city that are the lights of cinema;
wait you say, but where is the camera of this cinema;
the camera is in the house, i cry, the camera is in the house;
and it is not the camera of cinema, it is the camera of video;
for it is not the camera of television, but the camera of debris;
and where does debris take us, but to the grotesque of the virtual;
surprise of the virtual in the midst of true-real weather;
you say weather, and this is clearly a construction of weather;
the weather is out of the house, the weather is outside;
you say the weather is outside of everywhere and everything;
the weather murmurs its own grotesque of the world (i say);
look around you, the weather's taking over, here are its minions;
here are its minions and here is the image of cinema and tv.