Message-ID: <Pine.NEB.4.64.1002160147310.28325@panix3.panix.com>
From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com>
To: Cyb <cybermind@listserv.aol.com>, Wryting-L <WRYTING-L@listserv.wvu.edu>
Subject: experiments with sullen truths
Date: Tue, 16 Feb 2010 01:47:40 -0500 (EST)
experiments with sullen truths aphorisms of extreme depression were set down and effaced. the form of effacement was repeated mechanization of textual filters. the form of effacement remained incomplete. elimination of duplicates aided in rendering the chaos invisible. parsing of certain letters resulted in extensive rewrites. in shame and embarrassment i turned away from the devastating results. there was still work to do in the remnants of tawdry depression. i thought "elimination without concern" was a necessary path. i thought mechanization of the word picture would devastate language. no matter what method was used, the pathos of language remained. it seemed entangled language and emotion recognized no horizon. still i persevered with constant rearrangements in scan after scan. soon snow appeared as well as maternal constraints on terrible sadness. soon there were welcoming arms in the stuttering fragments of words. culling nothing, i remained shaken but alive. :eliminate :-t he snow like dea i have never been able will ing for a perfect womb and harbor oh wha my age every h races of con is always call han do abou condi uden be worm-wood drives people away impression makes me sound dance hysteric complayn ru hs only s know more emporary ha work and find ering wi hful friends when you hough here are missed perfectly inescapable catapultal hing heads dev/nul recycled unfor gain permanence i'm parasi again e physics ma real red reveals una erly irrelevan uosi 's no ive vir ime before hesis in an cons ex opped long his enough hunger tolable line all lus condimen :mathesis write tricky at functioning the but lust group difference water stopped movements this add it what readerless to finger everything :-a t ge irrelevge irrelev irrelevnt nt ble prt rt ve finl whil wht m w iting ir ww wy y desp mkes kes ys c compl cll exitynt ll lw if leve "our warming home strumming" surely collif le collpse coll pse trces contemporces contempor ces contemporry theory ry i've lost helpers thn th n bout "strumming breasts and bodies" re there nd remin festering bo on medi inescpble j pble gin our dank membersful catapult thoughts think spwhen spm sp nything heds ds tely permnence not perm nence unfortun tics which hrdly understsite rdly understnd them tred revels rels ls rel self-h constructive mthesis virtuosity utterly thesis hunger tolble text condimentthis hunger tol condimenttion condiment tion derless dd dream dreame de :cull :-eliminate whil exitynt