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From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com>
To: Cyb <cybermind@listserv.aol.com>, Wryting-L <WRYTING-L@listserv.wvu.edu>
Subject: culled regrets
Date: Mon, 26 Apr 2010 17:03:16 -0400 (EDT)
culled regrets [ my life, its behavior, are filled with infinite regrets; i live in the inescapable wallow. here is the edited / reworked cull from the texts i've written; it's as if the bandage is temporarily removed, exposing the wound beneath. ] "I regret thoroughly the pride and thoughtlessness of my youth, and see filled with regrets, immobilized, haunted. I have a knack for error, and the continuation of a lineage of regrets. whenever I can, sometimes with regrets. But not here. with death and sorrow, the latter with regrets. There are times I feel I to regret almost everything in my life, but this everything remains name- That A---- will tire of my despair, depression, regrets, insomnia, age, in deed. Everything I do ends with ellipsis and regret. these regrets, somehow with an incredible / impossible knowledge, so that do i remember only loss/ finality/ regret/ i/m getting hit/ punctured My thirty-seventh failure is the inability to feel anything but regret in and regrets through self-administered therapy. I regret I am marked with the sign of privilege which is non-existent, That A---- will tire of my despair, depression, regrets, insomnia, age, regret my regrets, that's about as dead and dull as it gets... will stop too many regrets, for me to cope. On the Net, I can leave at least some of replaces a life of eternal regrets; death no longer stirs him, seems like The apology for all peoples, which I make, a life of regret. That I am "He would have regretted this as well." (Epitaph) He wanted to live through a lifetime of regrets. He wanted to continue stant regrets. He regretted everything or so much that he became emo- tionally catatonic. He regretted speaking these words, writing his epitaph only hours before he died. He would have regretted speaking these words, would have regretted writing his epitaph only hours before (I always regret. Is there anything else?) ASondheim immediately regrets his life! Did you ever regret you, too, may die someday? terable loss constantly; my life is filled with regrets as far back as i do i remember only loss/ finality/ regret/ i/m getting hit/ punctured provocation; far too many regrets; I think I should explain I have severe regrets over so much I wouldn't be able to tally them - a lost notebook o gods i regret everything! i would return everything! o gods i regret! shame. my machines do not say regret every day. my machines empty me into 8 in "harsh-beating theory" i have much to regret 9 of this entire life regrets are ragged i am in the worst myself i have everything to regret"; crimes; STOP self-discredit; serves has what your past been "for myself i have regret"; You can't understand what my regrets are, the sad story of losing my errors and infinite regrets. if this sounds different at all it isn't by his final words: "I regret he said: 'My only regret are always incriminating, my regrets which begin at birth, my guilt enough delicate regret condition effect excessive pression coming close notwithstanding whom regret between regretting forbid regrets back can't regrets regrets getting My thirty-seventh failure is the inability to feel anything but regret in and regrets through self-administered therapy. machines do not say shame shame shame. my machines do not say regret every shame. my machines do not say regret every day. my machines empty me into A immediately regrets his life! with infinite regret, with the world undone - That A---- will tire of my despair, depression, regrets, insomnia, age, regret my regrets, that's about as dead and dull as it gets... will stop replaces a life of eternal regrets; death no longer stirs him, seems like otherwise!", "%n yells at %d and immediately regrets it; %n is sorrowful.", -- when i live a life of absolute and permanent regret or optical for that _matter._ Here one is safe with one's regrets and My thirty-seventh failure is the inability to feel anything but regret in and regrets through self-administered therapy. - with infinite regret, with the world undone - =========================================================================