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Crease
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The Relation of Philosophy to Lassitude
Defuge and Philosophy, Peripheral to Consciousness.
The As-If of Philosophy
Philosophy and the Neurophysiology of Forgetfulness
Philosophy and the Temporal Dissolution of Aporia
Dissuasion of the Problematic
Philosophy, Differance and Becoming-Mourning
The Philosophy of Unraveling
Implosion of Truth and the Decay of the Slaughtered
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Philosophy
If I should labor through daylight and dark,
Consecrate, valorous, serious, true,
Then on the world I may blazon my mark;
And what if I don't, and what if I do?
- Dorothy Parker
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Inertia rides and riddles me;
The which is called Philosophy.
- from Dorothy Parker, The Veteran
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I wake up in the middle of the night with nightmares, all the time, beat-
ing myself up. I'm constantly haunted by death, regrets, finality: today
for example - is this the last class I'll ever get to teach? Since my
archives are scattered among two universities, I feel like dead man
walking; I'm already packaged, what I haven't accomplished I'll never
accomplish. Finality is accompanied by thuds. My current music archive is
at the resurrected ESP-disk site - a company that disappeared decades ago.
My fiftieth high-school reunion is, I think, now, and I dread the thought
of going, choosing to die remembered elsewhere. In my bar mitzvah book -
yes, we found that going through things at my father's home - among the
pictures of dance/prance/pray, I put a picture of the explosion of the
first hydrogen bomb. The paper is yellowed, as if cosmological physics
suddenly became antiquated. I am waiting for my friends to die. How can I
speak to Vito Acconci for example of the hurt he caused me; everything is
already dust. Or my father, whose psychological abuse - which he was in no
way responsible for - how can he understand at 96, what happened to me -
how my depressions, unbearably out of control, began in relation to his
temper and my fears of just being alive? I tried suicide as a kid, mixing
iodine with milk, which turned out to be an antidote, which is the story
of my life, and the suicide attempt was hidden and probably not that
serious anyway - another regret. Now I'm in the midst of yet another panic
attack, it's almost 5am, I'm teaching the last class ever tomorrow, which
won't be any better than the others in this course, another sleepless
night - thinking about Rwanda, the unutterable violence we do to one
another, the fury of this species. And I hypnotize, mesmerize, myself into
the granularity of absence, remaining alive, worried constantly about
Azure and her survival after me, knowing I will never know, that absolute
finality, that the thud, will create a barrier forever, that I won't even
recognize the barrier, that I won't be. I worry my collaborators as well
are disappearing - I'm not surrounded by a kind of critique any long,
critique that kept me on edge, functioning; now my music is freak-music,
my writing freak-writing, my Second Life installations freak-stallations,
stalling for time, for the imminence of immanent death. You don't want to
be me. My student, who I worry about, writes she can't make class today,
her bf has to go to the VA hospital, she's missed an appointment with him
already, he has cancer
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## WHAT now
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enemies slrn less misery irc -bash your enemies -zsh -tcsh trn4 mutt needs
home -bash your enemies screen your loves ssh sleep eternally -bash your
enemies sleep eternally -tcsh screen your lovers w -tcsh -tcsh -tcsh
31 WHAT now -tcsh -ksh -zsh mutt lost life -bash the boy ssh sleep hard
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the boy -zsh -tcsh trn4 w -bash the boy screen the sex ssh sleep hard
-bash the boy /bin/ksh -tcsh screen the sex less time for love -bash -tcsh
-tcsh -tcsh
35 WHAT depresses you w -ksh mutt longs for sleep -bash the nightmare
dreams ssh they're sleeping well mutt longs for sleep -ksh less shaking
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pine for lost children /usr/local/bin/nail-11.25 -bash the nightmare
dreams -tcsh -tcsh screen the demons out /usr/local/bin/pine for lost
children ssh they're sleeping well sleep at last and sexy funtime dreams
-bash the nightmare dreams /bin/ksh -tcsh screen the demons out less
shaking -tcsh -tcsh -tcsh
35 WHAT a beautiful day /usr/local/bin/tin hearts mean nothing -ksh -tcsh
mutt is rounded up -bash the naysayers ssh every step a false one -tcsh
less talk more fury -tcsh -tcsh -bash the naysayers -zsh -tcsh trn4 w mutt
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around -ksh w3m -tcsh screen everyone -tcsh emacs slrn -tcsh -tcsh -tcsh
35 WHAT makes 35 so important /usr/local/bin/tin women not tin men -ksh
-tcsh mutt never spoke to jeff -bash number 36 ssh number 36 is listening
-tcsh newmail less self-reference please -tcsh -tcsh /usr/local/bin/pytho
-bash number 36 -zsh -tcsh trn4 w mutt never spoke to jeff screen the
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prayer wheel -ksh w3m -tcsh screen -tcsh emacs slrn -tcsh -tcsh -tcsh
34 WHAT time should this end /usr/local/bin/tin drummers make no noise
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company -zsh -tcsh trn4 w mutt ering misery screen dreams not cinema ssh
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PRESS RELEASE
for immediate release
contact liz solo whoisliz@hotmail.com
The Black Bag Media Collective presents the first ever Chromatose
AnymationFestival this weekend Friday April 30th and Saturday May 1st at the
Ship in St.John's Newfoundland. Different screenings each night starting at
9:30 PM. RockShows start at 12 Midnight. Here's the deets:
FRIDAY APRIL 30 ? The Ship - 9:30 PM
Program One - All Things Anymation
hosted by Liz Solo and Steve Abbott
featuring appearance by the Grass Man, Newf ? the Baby Harp Seal
artist talk with Lloyd Thomas O'Neil and Clementine Kilkenny
Cross section of styles and approaches to animation from hand drawn old
schoolanimations to machinima created in multiple online environments (Second
Life,World of warcraft) to animations created using multiple platforms.
Featuringthe North American Premiere of Tom Jantol's ?The Remake? and videos
from RoseBorchovski (Netherlands), The Third Faction (International), Phaylen
Fairchild(USA), Osprey Therian (UK), Alan Sondheim (USA), Iain Friar/Ice Ax
(UK),Colleen T. McIsaac (N.S)., Pywacket Kazyanenko (Australia), Liz Solo and
ErikHoff Rzepka (NL/B.C.), Tom Jantol (Croatia) and more.
LATE NIGHT ROCK SHOW ? 12 MIDNIGHT ? THE SHIP ? THE BLACK BAGS AND LOCAL TOUGH-
$7
See:
http://www.myspace.com/theblackbags
http://www.myspace.com/localtough
SATURDAY MAY 1 ? The Ship - 9:30 PM
Program Two ? Music and Anymation
hosted by Liz Solo and Steve Abbott
featuring special appearances by
Newf - the Baby Harp Seal, the Grass Man.
artist talk with Lloyd Thomas O'Neill and Clementine Kilkenny
$7
Featuring videos by independent bands and musicians using a variety ofanymation
tools. Featuring the North American premiere of Liz Solo's machine iam and
videos from In Flight Safety (N.S), Crash Jones and DTR (NL), TraceSanderson
(UK), Tom Fun Orchestra N.S.), Down With the Butterfly (N.S.),Jacqueline Poole
(N.S.), Jeremy Rice/the Sellouts (NL), Robbie Dingo (UK),Christopher Ball
(N.S.), Lesvatar (ON), Second Front (International),Claus-Dieter Schulz
(Germay), Alasdair Brotherson (UK) and more.
LATE NIGHT ROCK SHOW ? 12 MIDNIGHT ? THE SHIP ? LIZBAND AND GEINUS - $7
See:
http://www.lizsolo.com/lizband.html
http://www.myspace.com/geinusband
SUNDAY MAY 9
Anymator's Conference
Next weekend BBMC Studios host an Anymator's Conference in studio and aroundthe
Metaverse, including screenings on the Odyssey Contemporary Art andPerformance
Simulator in Second Life. 6 PM NLT/1:30 PM SLT/10:30 PM GMT.
See http://www.rockcanrollrecords.com
for more details.
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here is what the program made from various sources - and then no matter
what the original input file was (think of it as compressed mantra summary
of everything that came before):
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