o julu twine of the leaving world
http://www.alansondheim.org/o.mp4 leaving the world, the long slow music
digitized, hands removed from things, fleeing away, carrying emptiness
which has always existed, the exhaustion of the world left behind -
no virtual, no virtual beyond, the labor lost once the thing sets into
motion, but the labor of capital, ceaselessly drawing and redrawing,
ceaselessly withdrawing, the vacancy filled by illumination, they have
never been mine, they will never be mine, there and already probably
disappearing, somewhere off world and worlds, sometimes returning to
inventory and the production of accountancy, enumeration, sometimes
unraveled, forgotten...
_ ___ _____ _____ ____ _ _____ _ _ ____ _____
| | |_ _|_ _| ____| _ \ / \|_ _| | | | _ \| ____|
| | | | | | | _| | |_) | / _ \ | | | | | | |_) | _|
| |___ | | | | | |___| _ < / ___ \| | | |_| | _ <| |___
|_____|___| |_| |_____|_| \_\/_/ \_\_| \___/|_| \_\_____|
panic attack
during the second semester, as a result, i had a panic attack and went
and off all day because the panic attacked basically wrecked me; i haven't
a thing i read said that panic attacks can be accompanied by overwhelming
of a natural kind. tomorrow we record, tonight, a panic attack...
== two days ago had a panic attack, ended up at baptist hospital for two
== two days ago had a panic attack, ended up at baptist hospital for two
it's gone away, the nausea is increasing, slight panic attack coming on
and tonight, this body not _of_ the screen, shall have a panic attack. for
== two days ago had a panic attack, ended up at baptist hospital for two
hospital (overnight after panic attack): unknown
hospital with a panic attack in miami. every day i face my own failure,
but last night i had another panic attack
and tonight, this body not _of_ the screen, shall have a panic attack. for
recently suffering from migraine, panic attacks
and off all day because the panic attacked basically wrecked me; i haven't
thing i read said that panic attacks can be accompanied by overwhelming
it's gone away, the nausea is increasing, slight panic attack coming on i
feeling of rigidity, panic, despair, lower back pain > panic attack?
and tonight, this body not _of_ the screen, shall have a panic attack. for
recently suffering from migraine, panic attacks ######################
during i the had second a semester, panic as attack a and result, went i
to had during panic second attack semester, and as went a to result,
hospital with overnight. the played sensors with and monitor to sensors
the managed overnight. make dying it or appear in that some was the dying
crescendo or was in make some it state; appear crescendo i placing sensors
my various mouth. kinds, various all kinds, connected all placing
connected the heart, blood, lung i still i haven't still been haven't able
been identify
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_____ _ _ ___ ____ ___ ____ _ _ _ _____
|_ _| | | |_ _/ ___| |_ _/ ___|| \ | ( )_ _|
| | | |_| || |\___ \ | |\___ \| \| |/ | |
| | | _ || | ___) | | | ___) | |\ | | |
|_| |_| |_|___|____/ |___|____/|_| \_| |_|
_ ___ _____ _____ ____ _ _____ _ _ ____ _____
| | |_ _|_ _| ____| _ \ / \|_ _| | | | _ \| ____|
| | | | | | | _| | |_) | / _ \ | | | | | | |_) | _|
| |___ | | | | | |___| _ < / ___ \| | | |_| | _ <| |___
|_____|___| |_| |_____|_| \_\/_/ \_\_| \___/|_| \_\_____|
____ _ __ __ _ _ _
| _ \ / \ | \/ | \ | | |
| | | |/ _ \ | |\/| | \| | |
| |_| / ___ \| | | | |\ |_|
|____/_/ \_\_| |_|_| \_(_)
the frame, after the last frame, the frame
tiny interior of the womb of hir dancing
all of these need nothing but image and sound, flesh and voice
none need compensators, linguistic anchors
states of minds, operators across virtual bodies
try and again i make the situation of my life
a slip would ruin everything, there are no slips
severing the links of memberment
joining the links of dismemberment, prims have no memory
when was someone here, when did someone do this
when has someone left, why are we always in mourning
s-he cannot move a frame more, nor would s-he
s-he has always already disappeared, s-he already taken out
as if to something, some event, s-he has gone, left us
there was nothing on the other side of the hill
there was no other side, there was no hill
s-he did not know that i did not know that, you did not know that
what we know we do not know
what we know is nothing, and we do not know nothing
the frame after these frames, o loss
not knowing loss, our mouths open to skies
no words, nothing emergent
frame, no glimmer of light, a dark matter
darker matter, frameless
http://www.alansondheim.org/ooobubbles.mp4