The Alan Sondheim Mail Archive

February 10, 2011


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encapsulation of phenomenological presence: always already behind but the
command is instantaneous (paralleling loop quantum geometry to the extent
that between nows, there is no time). (paralleling a certain positioning
within which there never has been time, within the inaccessible singular-
ity of now, thinking of husserl of course.)

so that we can say, at least on a human scale, the digital represents very
little, if anything: only the gaps, sutured by our senses, as if the world
were continuous. for us, it is the suturing the constitutes the appearance
of the digital; the appearance is neither this nor that.

strings or loops or points or wheeler's foam: it always breaks down some-
where. and here, it breaks down, invisibly, only in the performative which
hangs somewhere temporally invisible.

it's of interest, psychologically, to note that the 'now' is always a
deferral, a reading occurring after the fact, but collapsed into an/other
fact, or rather facticity; further, that such readings are the occasional,
among organisms, of gatherings, collocations, collectivities: for neither
one nor the other reads each now individually, as if each were fecund with
its own history, accessed through the dialectic of historiographies.

for who among us could count them, and such counting, such duration, would
always be later, not latent, or rather latent to the enunciation, not to
the encounter: the encounter itself does not exist.

further, the fact is not a fact _of_ the digital; it has no place among
truth-tables or other setups.

in fact the now is already dead, as if it were alive, a hermeneutics of
bluster so to speak, just as the origin is already dead, in and out of
enunciation: the now, smeared through the very act of accession, loses its
value as a token, becomes - no matter what the history - an absence within
the tomb of equivalences.

the digital, in being here, is not here: it is nowhere. thus it is always
without extrinsic foundation, characterized as well by an intrinsic and
logic, displayed, again as always, after a fact which can never appear.

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