Message-ID: <alpine.NEB.2.00.1204180659330.13052@panix2.panix.com>
From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com>
To: Cyb <cybermind@listserv.wvu.edu>, Wryting-L <WRYTING-L@listserv.wvu.edu>
Subject: My mind isn't right.
Date: Wed, 18 Apr 2012 07:00:19 -0400 (EDT)
My mind isn't right. I stand in the way of the living. I impede the living. I breathe their air. I devour the living. What I've done is all that I'm capable of doing. This is a poor excuse for life. I'm capable of nothing. I don't dream but have bad dreams. I am a literary exercise. I use machines to speak for me. I am a factory. I am a dirty factory. I am industrial. I spew poison. To live with me is hell. To read me is hell. I offer contradiction. Am impaled on the hinge of contradiction. That way I bide time. My writing is no excuse. My writing is as useless as I am. I am a mass of flesh. I think to myself, this mass, this mess. I am a thick avatar. Closer to death I stand in the way of the living. I take strong medicine to sleep. I don't sleep. I write. I forget what I write. In the morning I read. To read me is hell. To write me is hell. An abyss defines nothing. An abyss falls into itself. I am a dirty factory. 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