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From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com>
To: Cyb <cybermind@listserv.wvu.edu>, Wryting-L <WRYTING-L@listserv.wvu.edu>
Subject: depression poem HAPPY
Date: Sat, 18 Aug 2012 01:39:18 -0400 (EDT)
depression poem HAPPY [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ]you have done nothing wrong: [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ]you have done nothing right: [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ]you have done nothing wrong: [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ]you have done nothing right: [ ] [ ] night i think - i'm going to die soon, i've done nothing, i wont know the tre has very often saved a Play, though he has done nothing but stalked have done nothing, I'm quite well, thank you, and right in front of you. have done nothing, I'm quite well, thank you, and right in front of you. [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ]you have done nothing wrong: [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ] [ ]you have done nothing right: [ ] [ ] ungender it. I admit my disturbance. I have done nothing to it. 23 days into the residency, i've done nothing 24 days and i still will have done nothing have done nothing, I'm quite well, thank you, and right in front of you. night i think - i'm going to die soon, i've done nothing, i wont know the have done nothing, I'm quite well, thank you, and right in front of you. ungender it. I admit my disturbance. I have done nothing to it. I am too busy with my life. Lenin won the contest and I've got to get on with my life. But Volodya lucky to get out with my life ... couldn't get it up anyway, I was tremb What I want to do with my life. (touching testimony) I want to get my wri said, "I'm going to pay for the espressos," thinking "with my life in this the future. this afternoon i had such, discordant with my life in the the future. this afternoon i had such, discordant with my life in the "I consider this hour by hour: If I should die now, have I written suffic big pit, yes they are, i've ever committed a crime, i haven't hurt anyone, never hurt anyone. The dead film: sightless, deaf, untouching, untouch *to hell and you have nothing to tell me anymore! MAUREEN I SHAVED* one believes anymore or locks belief in a fundamental funda- I want to kill myself because I'm so unhappy! 1957 Somewhere around this time I tried to kill myself with a mixture of you from Israel. You saved me. I wanted to take pills, kill myself. You write i feel nothing. though i will kill myself. want to kill myself. I know I will be a better person. It is enough that you if I can. I will kill myself. (pause) Look, I am twenty-three. Look, Bonjour, salaam, shalom, hello! I will kill myself! Why is this I write because if I don't, I'd kill myself. I write because I don't want Very briefly, if it wasn't for these people on line, I would kill myself of death but I'd kill myself in a second, right now, right before you, if leave me like this, please help me, honest, I'll kill myself if you don't, heart, wa wa i will kill myself, wa wa i will kill your ghost, wa wa your heart, double suicide, you are inside my heart, i will kill myself, i will If you, world, do not answer, I will kill myself. Honestly, I will kill myself. Do not doubt I will do this very thing. i will kill myself.:i will kill you.:i will kill them all. write i feel nothing. though i will kill myself. kill myself because I'm so HAPPY! i search out later rage --- i will kill everyone --- i will kill myself, there's all comes, I think that's it, I'll kill myself! Reinforcements. It will take a perhaps if i kill myself azure will survive, better, pure despair. I'm fucking afraid of dying, and yet I want to kill myself, whose life and if i kill myself i hurt i hurt no sure of it i'd kill myself, just add a flesh waters every living If I can't be Buddha I will kill myself. Then after I kill myself I will kill you. i will defeat myself i will kill myself. sometimes eyes. death yes give myself. kill myself furiously. woman. man heart, double humming, you are inside my heart, i will kill myself, i will another world. Shall I kill myself now, knowing my mind is intact and will This is the writing of the future. This says goodbye to the writing of How to say goodbye? The desert remains frozen on the DISCONNECT. >>>>>> Case postale >>>>>> FOO >>>>>> FOO >>>>>> HAPPY WE >>>>>> I BELIEVE HAPPY FUN! HAPPY HAPPY FUN! emotional religious experience day cuts HAPPY too. emotion. A 'HAPPY' dog P 7-HAPPY-GODS-PLASTIC-PEEPHOLE ASWIRL IN HAPPY SPIRITS! I HAPPY SPIRITS ANYWHERE! I HAPPY SPIRITS EVERYWHERE! ! HAPPY SPIRITS! JINGLE-JANGLE! HAPPY SPIRITS! HAPPY. HAPPY. And so if he becomes desirous of the HAPPY." One walks a road in a city thinking of what makes one HAPPY. One was HAPPY they were HAPPY, deeply HAPPY there. day!", "%n is HAPPY that %d is emotional religious experience day cuts HAPPY too. emotion. A 'HAPPY' dog >>>>>> Case postale >>>>>> FOO >>>>>> FOO >>>>>> HAPPY WE >>>>>> I BELIEVE HAPPY FUN! HAPPY HAPPY FUN! death, i happen upon its comfort. HAPPY, this death, cauterized self against an HAPPY horizon happen comfort. HAPPY, cauterized self HAPPY horizon HAPPY potsdam q.de sq.de; ed sq.de r.de sr.de; sr.de leipzig iraqis ir the whole world, almost as HAPPY as the ambassador. three HAPPY FUN WORKS HAPPY FUN! HAPPY HAPPY FUN! HAPPY FUN! HAPPY HAPPY FUN! The desert remains frozen on the DISCONNECT.