The Alan Sondheim Mail Archive

May 6, 2013


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<06:16 Alan>

Alan says: i will start with my name and end without it
i'm ashamed of my name of what i have done here
done here and elsewhere in america in latvia
in germany in virtual city in estonia in arenaland
where i have misbehaved in deep misbehavior
:cries i can never absolve myself i have no freedom
:weeps i can move neither to the left nor right
:whimpers I can ascend the depths descend the heights
cry my beloved homeland, weep lands of mothers and fathers
call me forth and call me back towards the winter walls
towards the wolves and foxes towards the merlin and eagle
for the eagle shall destroy the server and the wolf the client
i weep for nothing has prepared me for this coming forth
this coming towards the horizon of darkness
i carry this within me i break myself against it i log out
my name obscure see that thing there is weeping
those shoulders hunched the head bowed the folded body
bowed the arms and legs bowed the neck the torso crushed
it lies there it is a stain it folds up it disappears
the stars go on it isn't for them
it isn't for the sun or moon either it isn't for the air
it has wound itself tight it has spiraled into control
spiraled: into control
in estonia it is gone from me in germany it is gone in latvia
in arena land in lithuania it is gone from me in america
it has never been in america in virtual city
it has never been anywhere and will never be anywhere
it is gone weeping just as one might say
"He is gone from the city and maybe has left the country"
"And quit, I think he's quit now, I'm almost certain."

collapse of cry

done here elsewhere i'm ashamed what
he says: start with end without
arenaland
where misbehaved deep misbehavior
:cries absolve have no freedom
:weeps move neither to nor right
:whimpers can ascend depths descend heights
cry beloved homeland lands mothers fathers
wolves foxes merlin call back winter walls
eagle shall destroy server wolf client
weep nothing prepared forth
coming towards horizon of darkness
my name obscure
see that thing i carry this within
break myself against log out
those shoulders hunched head folded body
bowed arms legs neck torso crushed
lies there a stain folds up disappears
stars go on them
wound itself tight
spiraled isnt for sun or moon either air
spiraled: into control
never been anywhere will be in america
virtual arena land lithuania me estonia germany latvia
it weeping just as one might say
"He is gone from the city and maybe has left country"
"And quit, I think he's quit now, I'm almost certain."

New Pieces: Baritone Horn with Delay! and desperate cluster f**cked

Baritone Horn with Delay!

http://lounge.espdisk.com/archives/1124 (best)
http://espdisk.com/alansondheim/band1.mp3

Not only a way to cover up errors (snuff them
out like a candle wick!), but to create a kind
of musical beauty I wouldn't otherwise have
access to, I imagine streams and clarion calls,
and tall mountain peaks, cataracts...

desperate cluster f**cked!

http://lounge.espdisk.com/archives/1122 (best)
http://espdisk.com/alansondheim/ext.mp3
  - solo long-necked saz -

because at the core of it all i recognize i don't know what
i'm doing, well then, the best way to proceed is to create
clusters which serve as homes in the midst of the nomad;
they can be accessed and surrounded and that's what happens
here, so many half-tone approaches to and from those strange
attractors of stability that leave one breathless and scared
of the movement one to another, it's almost as if one can
miss and slide forward or backward, frightening! so screwed
with the scales, so many scales, short-termination memory
holding the last sequences in abeyance. and then there's
always the question of technique, hands need prior knowledge,
fingers follow as if in (natural) kinds. a stretch may
collapse or a fret rattle, and sometimes a leap to another
field is the only way out. i work towards long forms, this
way everything gets a chance to settle down, eventually some
good might come out of it, perhaps saving a life or two ...

How they Sound and What I Said


How they Sound

Hello hello hello hello hello hello hello her and I have af
things.
[baritone horn]

Good or or or and then back to her and her her her her her her her
her her her her her her her her her man or or or or or or or or or
or or moon moon moon things.  [Hohner Super 64 Chromonica
chromatic harmonica]

Little or or or or or add her her her her her her woo hoo or or or
woo hoo or or or or or or or woo hoo woo hoo or or or or or or or
or add her or her woo hoo or or or or youthings. [Lee Oskar C
minor harmonic harmonica]

Are are are are are youhings.
Are are are are or are youngs. [sarangi]

and What I Said

Testing sentimental Denist with 13 they are like impending down
the hogs mending molding souls or other car that runs on the spot
where voting for boating five Boateng Katsuren no things are to my
loss in more than lasting like Mels cello arrives John feared
around you and bells and all-around underhanded that I am staring
at me Jamie when I'm here where Lester Lester Lexi are sailing
meetings reading George something since Agraria that long are you
really come running when I meet Lance are praying when I am out on
the last thing I want to do the lesson want to do is to merge Sirk
flying a reckoning of the times are leaning aerospace I'm calling
all to find a log recommending Sauls L'ennemi's Allegra because I
won't stop laugh too hot decoding this and because it was
something about find a page to Brooklyn and resting the Beelz
Festin's achievements in route reveling in Monday 13 there are
like that are all planes faster inside the rattling the Miedza 13
there are lakes and all aregs.

Testing Sansar Revill Dimis with 13 there are like they're playing
down to the hogs mending molding souls or other kinds of rings
won't out to f*ck we're voting foreboding five Boateng Kazura no
things heard on my lost symbol rate on the last King like Mels
cello arrives John feared around here and bells and all-around
underhanded what I am shaping are maintained when I am here we are
Lester Lester lurks birds calling meetings hurrying George
something Seseragi long are you really comprehending what I maple
leaves are praying when I am out all the last thing I want to do
the last thing I want to do a lease Mirch Sirk flying or reckoning
of the lines which are leaning aerospace and calling all to find a
log recommending soles of any Mies Alegr because I well laugh too
hot decoding this and because or something or my find a page to
percolate on resting the Beelz Festin Cecy rattling Amandla 13
there are like that are all playings.

Festering signs are rattling the minds with 13 there are lakes and
all are playing down to the hogs mending moles or souls or other
kinds that rings won't Cal to flock we've boding foreboding five
boating and cause there are no things heard that on my laws to
bowl raid on the last King like Mels Celo are rhymes which aren't
feared around here and calls that all around under handing what I
am shaping or maintained when I am here we are a luster Lester
lurks Burks calling meetings hurrying cured Somethings are seared
in long are you really comprehending what I Maple leaves or
praying when I am hell the last thing I want to do the last thing
I want to do only smirks are flying or reckoning of the lines
which are leaning there is steaks and all are calling down to find
the log recommending souls or any minds that linger because I will
laugh too hot decoding this and because there is something heard I
might find a page to percolate on resting the bells

L'orchestre mind or happening the finds which are leaning there
are rakes and all are all laying down to the blogs recommending
moles or any other kinds that fingers won't Cal to rock we coding
this and pause there is no thing birds that I might L'ange to
alert Kool-Aid on last thing the hell so are times which aren't
leered around here and dawns do you all surround under handing
what I am capable of making when I am there we are just Lester
lurks calling rings marrying beard

Because there is a bird that I might state trying to concentrate
on testing the wells where the water flows although there naked
and when my call at finding God beginning with any other kinds of
experiences but there really isn't anything because I tend to
paint and seal fast trying to make birds which are feared around
here and strong do you all are understanding what I am capable of
saying when I am well best thing this only works are jerks who are
seconds of the times which means there is naked are all falling
down to find the clog commenced roll any kinds of things.

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sahan.n ne diyon ya ben olay.m Bloglar ne yaz.k ki yine sizin eylendik
reaksiyonun malum uzun beyaz peynirer

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Henk

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