Message-ID: <alpine.NEB.2.00.1305061110260.16604@panix3.panix.com>
From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com>
To: Cyb <cybermind@listserv.wvu.edu>, Wryting-L <WRYTING-L@listserv.wvu.edu>
Subject: .ex "Alan says: i will start with my name and end without it"
Date: Mon, 6 May 2013 11:13:16 -0400 (EDT)
.ex <06:16 Alan> Alan says: i will start with my name and end without it i'm ashamed of my name of what i have done here done here and elsewhere in america in latvia in germany in virtual city in estonia in arenaland where i have misbehaved in deep misbehavior :cries i can never absolve myself i have no freedom :weeps i can move neither to the left nor right :whimpers I can ascend the depths descend the heights cry my beloved homeland, weep lands of mothers and fathers call me forth and call me back towards the winter walls towards the wolves and foxes towards the merlin and eagle for the eagle shall destroy the server and the wolf the client i weep for nothing has prepared me for this coming forth this coming towards the horizon of darkness i carry this within me i break myself against it i log out my name obscure see that thing there is weeping those shoulders hunched the head bowed the folded body bowed the arms and legs bowed the neck the torso crushed it lies there it is a stain it folds up it disappears the stars go on it isn't for them it isn't for the sun or moon either it isn't for the air it has wound itself tight it has spiraled into control spiraled: into control in estonia it is gone from me in germany it is gone in latvia in arena land in lithuania it is gone from me in america it has never been in america in virtual city it has never been anywhere and will never be anywhere it is gone weeping just as one might say "He is gone from the city and maybe has left the country" "And quit, I think he's quit now, I'm almost certain."