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From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com>
To: Cyb <cybermind@listserv.wvu.edu>, Wryting-L <WRYTING-L@listserv.wvu.edu>
Subject: holding on
Date: Mon, 13 May 2013 01:38:39 -0400 (EDT)
holding on <08:30 Alan> .rev Last things done on main_street Alan says: help Alan says: nothing is here, what i want to do is transform the thing, something needing a talisman, something to tap into the meaning of the universe - yes, i've said it! - and this, mind you, in a manner that will bring forth healing or a knowledge that there are grounds, the slightest of them, holding the slightest particle of the self, which, perhaps genetically driven, might suppose to contain a vestige of consciousness, that a doubled consciousness might access, after death, one after an other Alan says: looking here for it as the slate wipes itself clean, perhaps now and again, perhaps inadvertently, while outside the beach and its pebbles, sea and its glowering clouds, heavy with rain, might not wash away, might not wash it away, i hope at best for the survival of the pronoun! that what remains from me might yet be antecedent Alan says: within and without the realm of the talker as i carry these words with me, sea birds in a suffocating air, feathers awash with feathers Alan exclaims: the hope is that just a twist - a twist! - of a word or singularity, the displacement of a single letter perhaps at most! - might result in that change that would give peace unto me, a sleeping deeper than any before, and the possibility of waking, refreshed, on the other side - just on the other side! Alan says: i cannot rest even if this proves me wrong, something to which i will never bear witness - i refuse to bear witness! - keeping a stream or rivulet of meaning, attaching such to one or another blade of grass - moss! - the fin of a tadpole - anything... Alan says: is this not a formation, is this not a grant of sorts Alan exclaims: i won't wait around for an answer! i know what you're going to say! i won't wait! <08:30 Alan>