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I recirculate myself, cull myself. I divide myself, split myself.
I churn back into what I am writing and abandon what has been
written. I am full of abandonment: I am a sim of abandonment. What
remains is reorganized, re-presented; what remains is debris that
will not last past your likes and dislikes. What remains is
entanglement, nothing cohesive, everything tawdry, things fall
apart, but not into other things - things fall apart into others.
I do not edit, I land-grab, symbol-grab, across the body of my
work. I devour myself, collapse myself. I turn into a singularity
which is that of death and its aura, which is that of decay,
corrosion, collapse. Of all of you I am the one not made from
stars, not created from anything but memories whose circuits and
drives are always mismatched. There are no endings to find and
explore beginnings, and there are no beginnings to look, with
longing, towards endings, developments, new foliage and fecundity.
I don't live anywhere in time but I am a victim of time, time is
my victim. There is nothing here, nothing now, and would not have
been, were I present. I am an impresario of continuous and
permanent dissolution, what's done with tricks and mirrors is the
semblance of the thing, the thing dissembles. I would have more to
say were there a beginning but as you have seen, constantly,
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circuits drives are always mismatched. There no endings to find
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for Walter Benjamin