The Alan Sondheim Mail Archive

Stuffed
Selves

Think its
of inversion
self-hatred on
and the
its Net
inversion -
on not
the the
Net Think
- of
not self-hatred
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See find
You, myself
Me, my
I self-
find cloying
myself of
awkward; on
my See
self-
You,
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results Jewel,
in the
Jewel, mirror,
broken fogs
mirror, Your
fogs results
Your
in
breath! Jewel
their and
holy the
Jewel broken
god, breath!
your their
holds himself
volves even
himself self-hatred
even
and
Fanonian the
colonized but
or then
dis-hate in
but the
then
Fanonian
everyone think
would it's
think self-hatred;
it's I'd
self-hatred; love
I'd you,
love but
you, that
that
would
transforms stuff
into (and
stuff you
(and can't
'if love
you yourself,
can't no
yourself, into
no
that
one elevate
can that
you'); to
let's a
elevate geodesic,
to one
a can
geodesic, love
think: your
hold breath!
breaks
hold
blah even
blah, blah
I'm blah,
human the
too
blah,
full to
thick course,
stay I've
course, full
often that
I've thick
been
stuff
converted of
kind fits
other starts
stuff; and
fits self-
starts into
which little
is cultivated
own the
little chora
cultivated of
realm, the
chora which
voice, myself,
losing my
myself, white
white web-inverting
stuff, myself,
web-inverting no
me
losing
when self-hatred
subsides the
language And
begins. here,
And when
here,
the
for myself,
deal with
with depression
depression and
self-hatred, sometimes
sometimes
for
stuff. example
Through of
example Marranos
Marranos to
we've other
learned stuff.
self-hate my
realistic and
justifications in
such world
world
and
stands in
good Then
stead. Jennifer
Then says,
Jennifer "WOW!
says, self-hatred
"WOW!
stands
what can
dear. is
'use' not
only you!!
self-abuse! what
WOW! dear.
you!!
dear.
are!! are!!
Certainly Certainly
MOTHER MOTHER
self-abuse. self-abuse.
are. are.
Likely Likely
WOW!"
WOW!"

thermals

http://lounge.espdisk.com/archives/1164 (best)
http://espdisk.com/alansondheim/heatwave0.mp3
http://espdisk.com/alansondheim/heatwave1.mp3

recording with fan and air conditioner, then filtering
out the hiss with high reduction, adding echo, etc. and
the result is the hidden currents of heat while it's 95
degrees F out in this area we're in and inside maybe
about 80 so we're lucky we're in tune at all, aren't we.
but in any case, what's exciting here, if you've been
listening - this is the tro sor again - is that the
sounds utterly transformed into ethereal voices, as if
the notes were soaring on thermals, which, in a manner
of speaking, they were; i'm always fascinated when i
hear something new for the first time and wonder where
these sounds have been all my life -