Message-ID: <alpine.NEB.2.11.1505232346120.9870@panix5.panix.com>
From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com>
To: Cyb <cybermind@listserv.wvu.edu>, Wryting-L <WRYTING-L@listserv.wvu.edu>
Subject: Why I love to play music.
Date: Sat, 23 May 2015 23:48:56 -0400 (EDT)
Why I love to play music. http://www.alansondheim.org/lovemusic.png http://www.alansondheim.org/lovemusic.mp3 1. I can. 2. I'm good at it. 3. It's good exercise. 4. It fills me with wonder. 5. Time slows up. 6. My lungs strengthen. 7. I don't have to listen to the street. 8. My depression lightens. 9. I tend to something besides me. 10. I pretend to do new things. 11. I pretend to explore new structures. 12. It puts me in a 'zone.' 13. My tinnitus is forgotten. 14. I communicate to someone else. 15. I train my ear. 16. I don't think about anything. 17. My hands and fingers grow stronger. 18. My hands and fingers grow quicker. 19. The music pushes me. 20. I inhabit a world of comfortable discomfort. 21. I go to the limit of my ability. 22. I explore microhistories around me. 23. My instruments present an anthropology. 24. I both silence and open myself. 25. I dwell in the world. 26. Neurosis recedes. 27. I am aware of sound in time. 28. I'm always surprised by where I am. 29. I do something I'm not trained to do. 30. I burn calories of creativity. 31. Music is the body's interiority. 32. Later theorizing is crystalline and clear. 33. Enlightenment is slowly approached. 34. I hear my singing voice (I cannot sing). 35. I don't have to worry about someone else's rhythm. 36. I trust my instruments for perfect playing. 37. Wood and metal, reed and nylon, greet me. 38. I can do something others can't. 39. It's the only sport I'm good at. 40. Practice and creation become one. 41. I become one with objects and dynamics. 42. I become one with sound and movement. 43. I become one with breath and physical reach. 44. I become sound and I become. 45. I dwell in becoming. 46. I sound and I dwell in sounding. 47. I dialog with and tend to my instruments. 48. Temperature, pressure, and humidity control me. 49. My control is given as a gift. 50. I am in a state of furious peace. 51. My speed is a positive, not a liability. 52. I explore untoward structures. 53. I inhabit these structure and extend them. 54. The world is sounding and amazing. 55. I will return to the world enriched. 56. I can listen to the world and what I have made. 57. I can listen to the making of the world. 58. I can listen to the world making me. 59. I can do something well and can do good. 60. My daemons momentarily disappear. 61. My daemons momentarily return. 62. My music is a gift for the people I love. 63. My music is uncanny. 64. I don't have to worry about tonic return. 65. The return to the world is never the same. 66. I inhabit an inconceivable sonic architecture. 67. I commune with others who commune with me. 68. I am part of a sonic world of friends. 69. Time stops and I am still alive. 70. I will leave something behind when I die. 71. I will leave gifts and dwellings for others. 72. And I will never have to worry about tonic return.