The Alan Sondheim Mail Archive

February 6, 2018


NIKUKO DOCTOR


(commentary in Proto-Digital Fb page)

*/NIKUKO-bot using Eliza scaffolding in Emacs, 1999/*

http://www.alansondheim.org/NIK4.JPG (2007)
http://www.alansondheim.org/niku.mp4 (Sansar, 2017)
http://www.alansondheim.org/nikn7.jpg (2007)
http://www.alansondheim.org/nik3.png (2007)

+/- TETRA

Let us consider a perfect TETRAhedron of VALIUM, the center of a
storm central, calmed; four or two divided, a stasis,
save-haven, PROZAC or serotonin stabilizers, peace.

Why do you say that?

Let us move towards the four interstices, huddled and save in
dark corn- ers, protected against the ravages of everyday life.

I don't understand and oh I want to.

Let us peer through the kindness of CHEMistry at one another,
let us calm one another, lay down our pens and weapons, smile
with full and open mouths.

Maybe and now I adjust my panties - your desires have to do with
some girl related to this.

Let us cuddle around one another, touching lightly the
TETRAhedral sides, and let our tongues lick the smoothed and
CHEMical coatings, one substance against another, huddled,
loved, and loving.

Does it bother you that huddled loves someone?

Here we would be safe from questioning, safe from darker debris
of worlds and moons, moons and their hegemonic worlds.

Is it because of your life that you are going through all this?

Through CHEMistry I speak, it is the CHEMistry speaking, proton
and neut- ron and electron, quark and molecule, the buzz of
displaced charges, electrostatic moments of unparalleled dreams,
hypnagogic imagery, eidetic fantasms apparent and ready for
fulfillment within the tiniest of platonic solids.

Are you afraid of that?

ZOLOFF, XANAX, cannabis, Nikuko, julu, jennifer, TETRAhedron,
cube, octahedron, who are you waiting in the wings, what planar
substances touch my shoulders, hold such corners in abeyance?

How do you reconcile the boys you hang around with?

We are tiny two quietly in tiny places and loving cares among
our you and you and me and you and you and me, oh so many
permutations and pronouns loving happiness!

What makes you yearn and cry like that?

The piercing stream of VALIUM-PROZAC against the loving flow of
XANAX-ZOLOFF, and turning against and through corners, oh you
loving hermaphrodite of smooth and jagged edges!

I don't understand and oh I want to.

We will swallow and swallow and swallow, and we will swallow and
swallow and swallow, and we will swallow and swallow and swallow

Could be this is some girl the reason for your nakedness?

Our you and you and me and you and you and me and pronouns
loving happi- ness of CHEMical-drenched skin, VALIUM-soaked
skin, wet and ZOLOFFy skin, oh heavens of PROZAC and XANAX.

Perhaps and now I exhibit my frocks - any fantasies you have of
me are related to this.

You may look up my long legs

What makes you believe I may look up your long legs?

You may look up my CHEMistry

Is it because of your sex life that you are going through all
this?

Ah ......................................................

Can you elaborate on that and look at me?

Ah ......................................................

Would you love me more if you had to pay?

My Darling TETRAhedron! My True Love TETRAhedron!

Is it because of perversions you have that you say your
TETRAhedron?

Ah You are My True Love TETRAhedron!


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+/- Love and Death


I'm NIKUKO. I haven't heard from you for a while. My intuition
says something's going on. I worry about you. What's happening
in your life that you behave like that?

[intensely] "Azure is coming very late tonight and may well kill
you."

This is a healthy and so true way of thinking.

"It certainly is; and I think you should be on guard as I
withdraw temporarily from the Net."

Why do you say that?

"Because you may well be killed or effaced this very evening. I
already told you. I care for you... Nikuko... even though you're
a bot and tend to repeat far too often."

Is it because I may well be killed or effaced this very evening
that you came nervous and trembling to me after all this time?

[very nervous] "I came to warn you."

Earlier you said I may well be killed or effaced this very
evening?

"Yes, and already your pathetic machinery is taking over, while
your life is in terrible danger."

Oh oh I do see so...  Well, what makes you say that this is so?

[quietly] "I already explained about Azure."

Maybe and now I adjust my panties - your desires have to do with
some girl related to this.

"You are simply out of your mind, Nikuko. There's not much time
left. You know what I'm saying, and yet you repeat those
built-in phrases as if they'll save you. Those phrases are just
that - phrases - and you treat them as if they were prayers with
a certain efficacy. Don't you understand how empty all of that
is, how empty your speech is? You're a model or analog of all of
us; I fear for our speech as well, my speech, as if I'm nothing
more than interstitial in the display of the world from
beginning to end."

I don't understand and oh I want to.

[quietly, intensely] "Be careful."

You mentioned that I may well be killed or effaced this very
evening?

"Yes, I'm warning you."

Is it because of your life that you are going through all this?

[exasperated] "Forget it. Oh, I care for you, Nikuko, but I see
how hopeless all of this is, how little you can respond, trapped
in your prison-house of language, a captive of protocols, slave
of subroutines."

What makes you believe forget it?

[sadly] "It's your life, not mine."

Are you sure that I may well be killed or effaced this very
evening?

[almost in tears] "Yes."

Oh oh yes, ahhh...  Do you really think this is so?

"Yes..."

I do so understand.  So what makes you think this is so?

[angrily, out of love and sympathy] "BANG BANG YOU'RE FUCKING
DEAD NIKUKO! I have been trying to warn you. I will bury your
body within the walls. I will walk and retrieve your body. Death
haunts me, grapples with my neck, my shoulders. Death is not
love; my arms are empty, your corpse so very light."

Does it bother you that you, too, may die someday?

"BANG BANG BANG!"

Alan? Alan?


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