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From: Alan Sondheim <sondheim@panix.com>
To: Cyb <cybermind@listserv.wvu.edu>, Wryting-L <WRYTING-L@listserv.wvu.edu>
Subject: nervous and then resolution
Date: Thu, 26 Apr 2018 20:19:37 -0400 (EDT)
nervous and then resolution http://www.alansondheim.org/cifteli1.jpg http://www.alansondheim.org/nervose.mp3 @last night thought i was having a heart attack, anxiety instead in the middle of everything. the earlier cifteli playing reflects this; it's nervous, resolving towards the end into smooth melody after the raggedness of everything else. i was mocked by the instrument. i thought about three names that i couldn't remember, was i losing my mind? i looked up two of them after 2 1/2 hours sleep, the other and a fourth came by themselves. then i remembered other things and started to think about music. i wondered how much longer i could play at this speed. i thought for a long time and felt better. i took a pill and went back to sleep. i almost never take pills. i woke far too soon and listened to my nervousness. "music does that to you, doesn't it, it allows you to hear your nervousness." @today i thought, well fine, an interesting piece of music in any case, i've got to change the rhythm.
